Last night Hubby seemed moody, thus i went over to have a heart to heart talk with him.
Me : "why? what happened at work again? why face black black....."
Hubby : "nothing....... "
Den he paused for a minute or so den continued...
Hubby : "I was thinking and wanting to go in delivery ward and operation theatre with you. But bb leh? He cant go in ma. If im not with you, you will be more scared right? That time saw you cried and screamed in pain, i heartpain ma. This time you sure you can go thru this all alone meh?"
Me : "no choice wat. I know im scared, but wat about bb. you have to be there for him and explain to him. for the sake of this, i have to force myself to be brave lor. i wan you there too, but...... you really wanna go in ah?"
Hubby : "hai................. see how first la. see what the doc say... "
Didn't know Hubby will though of this. So touched. At least i know he cares alot and wanted to be there for me and "Zaan" too. The thought counts. Im contented. Even if he cant make it, i dun mind at all. Cuz i know he will be worried and thinking bt me when im in there.
Any kind soul wanna go there with me so that you can help to look after Jayr for awhile, while hubby come in operation theatre with me? hehehhehe. really appreciate if you can :)
Anyway, been thru alot with hubby and we have come so far..... Dunno why, when we have Jayr, i still feel no sense of security in this marriage. But now, after we got our house, and everything, and 2nd child soon, i felt totally different. Like we are more secure, more firm and more like we are one. Like we are really a whole family. LOL. Not like those young parents with a kid, dunno what to do that kind... haha.
The only thing im afraid now is post natal blues. I know i will have to face it again. I know...... Not to worry, now that i know, i will try to think positively and try to be happy. especially i have my own house ya! hee.
Bye.
gonna mash my potatoes now :D
Jacky's Wife