Today's hubby's off day and we went for a swim early in the morning. They swim, i watch. Before that of cuz gotta fill up my tummy first. So we had mac breakfast and ya, i had my favourite Mcgriddles with egg and jayr had his happy meal. The free toy is so boring kind.
After their bathe, we went to Vivocity. Walked around and bought nothing. Oh ya, hubby bought boxer shorts nah. Den went down to Giant and splurged 300+. Pampers selling at 27.80 per box now. So we grabbed 4. A pack of pampers newborn for Zaan. Wanted to get S size too, but no stock. Den bought their milk powder. Tidbits, household necessities, and more. Den he suggested to go Chinatown, but i was thinking that the place i hot and path is narrow, difficult for pram and also you know, jialat la. So we went elsewhere. Wonder how we carry those things back right? No. We ask them to deliver to our house tomorrow morning. haha. They have this free delivery for purchase above 200.
Kiddy Palace. Bought the Avent package. Include milk bottles and all. Zaan's pillow and bolster. Mittens and boots. Jayr have lots of boots and baby socks actually, just lack of mittens. So maybe i will have to buy more mittens. Den stopped by FOX, and hubby bought 3 rompers for Zaan. And no more new clothes for him. Cuz Jayr have alot and some are even new and untouched. Maybe will shop for new set for the day of discharge. And that will be all!
Now Zaan lack of long sleeve top for bedtime only. Cheap cheap one will do. And nothing much i think.
Oh ya, and toys for Jayr. Must standby 1 or 2 new one and keep aside. When Zaan arrive, we have to use them to coax Jayr and let him know we still love him. LOL. Guess this is what most parents does bah.
Now even we walked around Toy'R'Us, we couldn't find a suitable toy for Jayr anymore. As in, he loves cars and balls, and he has A LOT of them already. So hubby was saying that maybe one of these day, go United Sq and buy those IQ brainy toy. Like now he learns and play at the same time.
As for his school, well, nearby ones are not to my liking. So im still looking around. Its really important to choose the right one. Really, the material they use, the method, the environment. Building up the foundation is the greatest aim.
ok gotta stop now. Jayr is getting nasty now. Bye!
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8:28 PM
.Tuesday, September 29, 2009 Y
"Miss Ris Low has given up her Miss Singapore World 2009 title and will not represent the country at the pageant in South Africa, said the organiser ERM."
Think this is the best that everyone was expecting.
First, we dun understand what she has that made her Miss Singapore World.
Second, such a disgraceful crime.
Really throw Singapore's face! Like whole world will be talking about this, i think. Or maybe not, because she is too ugly ( in and out) to be paid attention on.
Right now im watching Fann and Chris's wedding. Like so sweet, so touching and so classic!
So like girls, if you want this kind of wedding -
- Find a rich man.
- Find a faithful and gentleman.
- Find a family oriented man.
- Don't rush into marriage.
- Use years to build up the trust, love, and miracle.
And what else? Treasure what you have!
Always tell yourself that the one you're having is already the best thing that could ever happen in your life. So dun compare.
(of cuz not including those bastard husband la.)
Feel so happy for them. Feel so envy.
This is the kind of expression i would expect a man to have on his wedding day. And Chris, really, i see love in his eyes. And Fann, totally blissful and happy.
p/s: ( shhhhhhh.... but i find the hairdo not nice :( why got flowers? like so kuku. LOL) Anyway, everything is perfect and they look stunning!
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8:09 PM
.Monday, September 28, 2009 Y
"A study, involving hundreds of American children, showed that the more a child was spanked, the lower his or her IQ compared with those of others, reported MSNBC.com. "
I was reading the papers and i came across this. Like how "ridiculous" this can be. But anyway, they have done their research, they have professional supervision, so what's there for us to doubt.
"The researchers tested the kids' IQs initially and then four years later. "
And how reliable this information can be? Like me, you must be wondering too...
"The results, said Professor Straus, were statistically significant. And they held even after accounting for parental education, income, cognitive stimulation by parents and other factors that could affect children's mental abilities. "
Like we parents doesn't enjoy spanking our kids as well. But the problem is, sometimes or most of the time, only by spanking them, den they will understand how serious the matter is. And how serious we meant by saying "NO!". Really! Till one day when you become parent, you will know. Even if you scream until your throat burst they will still ignore and continue with their mischief. But once you spank them, they will stop immediately. I wont say they wont dare to do it again, but at least few times more, they will know what we meant by "NO!".
Like Jayr, he loves to open my kitchen cabinets and mess up the cans and dried goods. And den of cuz, i beat him on his palm or tight. But now, i only have to raise my voice a little and den say, "no no!.... keep!..... close!". Den he would hurry and start to put back the things and close the cabinets' door and den clap his hands and praise himself "good boy" and den run to the living room and pretend to be a good boy. *roll eyes*
Really! Little spanking is necessary one. But of cuz i wont slap him or pinch him or anything overboard la. I think the least respect for your kids is to not to SLAP their face.
The best way to teach or coach your kiddos is to praise them more. Even small little things, and it will make them happy and remember for a long time. I believe via this method, they will learn better. Like learning under a happy environment rather den a angry and stressful one. If you always yell at them or expect too high, they wont seem to do any better. Because they will feel stressful and kind of frighten-ness whenever its time for learning or study. Soon they will hate study. They will give up on it and give up on being a good boy/girl. Like, what's the point of being a good kid when mummy and daddy doesn't seem to be impressed at all.
I dunno. Everyone has their own ways on kids. Im just sharing.
Like both hubby and i will praise him when he done something right or impressive. We will scold him or beat him when he refused to obey. There are time to be angel and time to be devil. Just have to balance it well.
Too angelic - he/she will lack of discipline.
Too nasty - raise a unhappy OR defiance kid.
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Anyway, hubby said its time to send Jayr to school.
Ya SCHOOL.
Im not talking about child care. Like you pay 3 digits and den put your child there to rot whole day. Might as well stay at home and i play with him and teach him.
Like this age, what can i enrol him for? Playgroup? Or dance and drama? or what?
Maybe i should go google about it and see whats best for kids like him.
Hubby was like saying send him for the whole day one, and den i was telling him i wan him to learn, not to go there eat sleep play. Like that might as well stay at home, and save the money.
LEARN!!!
So now, im going to google about it.
p/s: it aint easy to put Jayr away from me for hours. Like i believe some mothers will understand the kind of feeling. Especially those stay at home mums. And den like why not you tell me ur experience? Besides feeling worried and nervous for your kid on the first day of school, what else did you feel? The 一點點捨不得 right? Like wow, my child has grown up. No longer the cuddly baby that always want you to carry. But thats what all mothers have to go thru. The tiny bits of sadness is there. 捨不得看他們那麼快長大. Wow, like too fast for us to catch up. hahaha. well, i still have to cope with this emotional thingy. Im too 感情用事。 whatever. Jayr is my biggest LOVE. The one that been thru all lows and highs moments with me. Never leave me in lurch.
i think when he gets married i will be crying like a mad old woman. LOL!
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8:57 PM
.Wednesday, September 23, 2009 Y
My mood is extremely low these days.
Deprived can be the best word to describe everything.
I dunno what to say either. I dunno how to blog properly. Like you tell me how.
I am do tired. Tired of everything. Tired of my life. Tired of being there for everyone.
Why am i living for them? Why am i doing everything for them?
Im tired.
公主般的生活从來都不屬於我。
許過的愿像是沒被听見。
羅漫迪克的愛情也从來沒出現過。
這样一般的悲慘命運，為何才是屬於我的呢？
我真的累了。。。
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8:29 PM
.Tuesday, September 22, 2009 Y
Kena put aeroplane by tenants :(
Was told that they wanna come and view the room this evening and den last min the agent called to say that they are not free, and will arrange for other day.
You know, the feeling's like interviewing for job. Like they will say, "i'll call you again." You know what i mean? Like the longer they drag, they more im worried. Im scare they wont wan to rent anymore :(
Hubby is not happy at work. There's are some idiots la. But i believe there are these kind of ppl everywhere. Like they do something for their own benefits, but den have to sacrifice some of the innocent ones la. Hubby always too kind to defend or even give it back to them. hai. I do hope he can find a better job elsewhere. The best is no more such uncertain shift la. LOL. Office hour would be the bestest. haha. Anyway, any job intro??? not for me thou...
Mooncake festival is around the corner. So many yummilicious flavours out there. Even liquor chocolate flavour! I have so much cravings, but not so much money. LOL.
Its still the best to be people's children den to be people's parents.
Agree?
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7:06 PM
.Sunday, September 20, 2009 Y
That day woke up so early and went for marketing. In the end, it rained so heavily. Like at first there was drizzle. Den Hubby said lets wait awhile. Den it stopped, so we quickly set off back home. Den not more den a kilometer, down came the rain! Its like a sudden downpour lor! Only Jayr was safe on his well-covered up pram. Me and Hubby was like drench totally. We chiong to the nearest void deck to hide awhile. Happened that they have study corner there, and 2 vending machines. Jayr was like super excited when i let him out of his pram. He ran to the machine and meddled around. So both my men meddled for about 10 mins and came back with tidbits. Lol. Luckily, earlier on i bought bubble tea so we have drinks to go along with.
Later, went home and den start cooking my curry and all. Damn it. My usual curry paste outta stock! how can it be?! must be hari raya la. They eat curry everyday. argh. Den the other brand one, hubby said not 香.
whatever. still have to eat what. LOL.
Last night went to google about the confinement meal delivery.
I mean there weren't much choices la. The price is about the same. Just the difference in menu only. Hubby said this is better as in more fish and herbs. LOL. Book one month earlier and i will get discount. haha. so i must book earlier. Tomorrow i will give them a call. And den next week send them a check (deposit), and dah, one problem solved.
Next thing is, yesterday i have an agent called me up and tell me there's this 陪讀媽媽 and her child wanna rent. Although the money is very attractive, but den first thing, she wan to cook, second thing, she will be at home day and night everyday.
You see, somebody at my house 24/7. Imagine she and her child sit at my sofa and watch tv den what about me and Jayr? Imagine she conquer my kitchen and fridge. Wa lao! Im the owner leh! You cant expect her to stay in her room wat. And den even though they say light cooking, but den surely after some time they will add more pattern one la.
I called my nanny and asked for opinion. She of cuz said no la. She said facing each other whole sure got problem one. Den hubby was like saying no point arguing with china woman, cuz they sure win by yelling and shouting. LOL. And we might not understand a single shit she rant. LOL. you know, the slang... And if you dun know, china woman can be very demanding and stubborn. LOL.
I would rather rent to those non cooking one. No children. and working people.
I dun wan to see them during day time. LOL.
I dun wan them to use my pots and pans and oil and seasonings.
I dun wan them to dirty my kitchen and stove.
I dun wan another person's kid to mess up my house.
cannot scold cannot beat. i will surely go crazy. LOL.
There's another one will call me today. see what kind she got for me.
hai..... not easy to take in strangers.
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9:57 AM
.Thursday, September 17, 2009 Y
Oh. Both Fann and Christopher made a lovely couple :D
Why cant everyone be like this? Like happily ever after should be everyone's ending. Den LOVE, wont be such a hideous thing at times.
I think i have done a stupidest thing today :(
How? How? How?
Do you remember i once blogged about those friends i once hanged out with and den ended up one fatass cursed me when she gotta know im getting married?
Ya, the B and LW and all........ remember???
B the fatty bitch.
LW the one we dote me alot and i owed her alot.
okok. the thing went like this......
I read that on LW's fb profile, that her niece has been running high fever from more den a week. Like 39. Den like for so many days already the fever still not subside even though she mentioned that they brought her to hospitals and none of it wanna admit her. And all doctors said the baby is fine just take medicine will do.
I was like checking it everyday.
I have soft spot for kiddos.
Maybe you can say i am super kpo.
Den today, i really cannot tahan anymore, i sent LW a private message. (of cuz cant post it like a comment la, later that fat B saw, she will kpkb again. like LW belongs to them only) *roll eyes*
I was like saying that i read about that and am worried for the little one too. And that its dangerous for kid to run fever for so many days. I even gave her some tips and said i hope it can be of help somehow. Den i ended it like coolly, saying that to take good care. Hai ya, something like that la.
What you think?
I am sibeh dumb right?! Ppl must be treating me like a nuisance and me here still trying hard to be good for what fuck?! Like now i feel like banging the wall sia.
(and also i let you ppl down. cuz that time everyone was like comforting me and telling me to ignore such frens and all. And its alright to lose these bad frens. but den i really still hope to befriend with LW only. But i also know that its impossible. Like B will surely get to know and den start to curse me again. What if this time she include my son leh? I will burn down her house!)
But i really cant understand why fever stay for so many days. And also i think by relying totally on western medication is not enough. So in order to recover faster, its better to do something else. And huh, to me, i think fever for so long might be some infection inside or what. But all doctors said she's fine? Like totally absurd!
Its still better to use traditional methods la. Like how our ah ma did to us or fed us with.
Anyway, the point is, WHY THE FUCK I GO THROW MY OWN FACE!
argggggggh!
Think im gonna be their topic again. Like they can say im thick skin la. Trying hard to rejoin la. Gaining credits la. NABEH CB LAH! I am doing this is because as a parent i know its life threatening to run high fever for a week or so, especially for baby!
Maybe being too kind also wrong la. whatever.
Until now, no reply no thank you no nothing.
SEE???
I was making a fool outta myself.
I threw my own face.
I created drama again.
Maybe i shouldn't care any shit bt her, AND ANYBODY RELATED TO HER.
But its life leh... how can i 見死不救?
Whatever lah!
At least i know i have done a kind deed. I mean i myself consider it as kind one.
Whether or not she accept it, its up to her.
Whether they wanna say any shit again, its up to them.
I have done no wrong at all from day 1 till now.
They hate me because i chose to be with hubby and hid it from them. They wan me to break with him but i didn't. Thus they think i disappoint them. But how can u decide other's future for them? You mean i cant move on with my life? I have to remain their fren forever and never get attached? hai..... they think by finding a rich and successful man, den is the right thing. But i have known so many men. rich, handsome or whatever. But ended up the one i love most is hubby wat. love this kind of thing is so unpredictable. A woman can love the world's baddest man. There's no reason for loving someone. They were just mad that i lied to them that i break off with hubby liao. I lied because they were like keep pressing me to do it and den everyday every min keep asking me. In order for some peace, i lied.
whatever la!!!!!!! its over and done.
Im married to him. I born him a son and one more on the way. We have a lil family. We are going to be together forever. just accept this fact! dun you think its better to wish us well?
But B cursed me and said she will sit back and watch how i fall one day.
See who will have the last laugh den, fat slut.
(hubby asked me to cook curry chicken tomo. So there will be early morning marketing tomo again. argh. oh, this time i must buy the huge french lofts. hahahahahaha. )
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8:36 PM
.Wednesday, September 16, 2009 Y
Baby is so active inside. His ultimate kicks are like killer. wth. I never had this kind of problem when i was having Jayr. Like ya all baby kicks, but den this one is like so active and kicks so hard and non stop kind. And now i even suspect that he might be in breech position. hmm. Like the previous check up, the gynae said baby's head is down. But den now i think maybe he have changed his position liao leh. Cuz the kicking is right at my right waist. So painful. I feel the kicks at the right of my waist and gastric there. Always there.
Just when i needed to find someone to talk to, there's not a single soul available.
I logon msn today. Everyone's status was either away or busy. whatever. I didn't bother to nudge or send a msg cuz im afraid i will get nothing, no reply. I am like suffering from insanity, i guess? Like i cant take any rejection anymore. I dun wan to be turn down. I dun wan to be treated like a bug. Maybe mainly because i am being treated like a rotten doll at home, thus i dunno how to accept the fact that my "friends" are treating me like bug. This kinda feeling is no good. I dun like. I know i have problem somewhere. I know. Maybe i need a pyscologist to tell me so.
Maybe shutting up oneself for too long aint a good thing.
maybe all i need is appreciation.
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9:06 PM
.Tuesday, September 15, 2009 Y
Need someone to hug me tightly and make me feel that everything's gonna be alright.
Need someone to kiss me passionately to reassure me that love is still around.
Need to be treated sincerely like im being appreciated.
Why does all good things have to come to an end?
I've strived hard to maintain; to bring it back. I've went against all odds to believe again and to lose so much.
I want caress. I want attention. I want kisses and hugs. I want love.
if all these are what a married woman whom have given birth, have to endure, den i would rather remain like in the past, un-married.
Its utterly bullshit when ppl say there are things we married women have to give up and accept. Bullshit. Ok like, we have to learn to argue less and throw less tantrum. But why must we accept the fact that our husband is treating us like junk? Like a rotten doll chunked aside. Like we are far worst den a tv or any game set. Or even when they dun make love to you anymore. No one, no couple should give up kiss, hug, sex. Its totally bullshit when they say we have to put other thing as priority. Because they dunno that without those 3 things, the whole relationship will turn very sour. Or even ended up divorced. This is what they called sex-starve. (go google about it and most couple seperated bcuz of this issue)
Like he no longer care when i got upset. No longer panic when im furious. No longer care when im sick. No longer care whether have we have any conversation
for that day! No longer kiss me goodnight. No longer kiss me goodbye. No longer say sweet things. No longer say I LOVE YOU.
When is the last time he said "I love you" to you?
(face to face)
what about me? too long..... so long that i have forgotten.
When is the last time he hugged you and french kissed you?
me??? way much longer that i dun even have any impression anymore.
I have long forgotten bt his scent. His breath. His body warmth.
I dunno how to answer when someone asked me "how's everything?".
Its like, its not alright as in this relationship is still not improving.
Its alright as in nothing serious have happened.
Just take any answer you prefer and stop asking me how am i. I am so sick of lying and pretending that everything's fine. Bcuz its just not fine and im not feeling good!
Guessed that in this life, i wont get any love anymore. until next life when i met another man or woman and i believe till then i will get what i didn't get in this life.
he dun love her.
he dun love her.
he dun love her.
no more love...
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7:36 PM
.Sunday, September 13, 2009 Y
Looks like daddy quek's bloggy is more interesting then mine (-_-)
There are new photos up in every post. Like wth, he took it via his phone and den said it in a yaya tone,
"i need to take more photos for my readers to see leh. you cannot use huh."
nabeh. like as if i give 2 fuck bt it. *roll eyes*
if weren't for me he will have such a nice blog skin meh? if weren't for me he have readers meh? hahahahahahahha. see who's more yaya now. LOL.
Oh. and amazing! i have overseas readers! Or maybe someone travelled elsewhere and still not forgetting my bloggy :) hee. You're so sweeeeeeet :D
p/s: info from nuffnang.
Anyway, im 6 months plus now. But hubby said my tummy still so small. *roll eyes*
Reason why, i think have to do with my diet. I ate like monster during my first pregnancy. But not for this 2nd one. But anyway, baby still growing well :)
Zaan, will this be the name? Maybe we shall not confirm so soon. Maybe what if i chance upon a nicer one? LOL.
I have so much cravings now. carbonara, mashed potato, coffee, dessert, curry, ice cream, mee siam, lontong, blablabla.........
Ok. i have actually nothing to blog about. LOL.
Maybe i should go video Jayr more. ahahahaha.
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7:58 PM
.Friday, September 11, 2009 Y
Before i start, i wanna say something about my bloggy's hit.
Like you know, nuffnang have this function that allows you to check your daily hits and referral and all these. I have since realised that my hits has went down since dunno when . Cuz i used to monitor my bloggy and hits, thus i know. I think the main reason is that i have went MIA for some time bah. Right? Like ppl might think im not going to blog anymore like that, so they might as well dun bother to check anymore. sad. And den blame it that i seldom update too. so whats there to see right? okok la. From now on, i promise i will update more often la. hehehe.
There was once, when everything's done and all, i sat on the sofa alone, thinking bout my past, things i have been thru, people that crosses my path, what i have been missing and still not having or whatever.
At age 10, my dad fell ill and since den, life have been very tough for us. He went for kidney transplant at China- Guang Zhuo. Went there for about nearly 6 months. Cuz no kidney available but they still have to wait there in case, last min there is, and den he will get to have it. Otherwise the hospital might give the chance to others. He left me with my nanny, as we really have no one to rely on. Relatives has their own family and kids were still very young thou. I cried whenever i talked to him on phone. Soon, he came back, but very weak ever since. After we shifted back to our house, i became the one who handles everything, every task. I have to learn to cook, wash, run errand and all. I have to force myself to be independent and brave.
Everyday i have to cook nutritious meals. Learnt it from nutritionists and books.
I have to clear his potty. ( He was too weak or lazy to even go toilet towards the end.)
I have to run errand for him even when im running high fever.
I have to endure his beatings and insults, even though i was in no wrong at all.
I have to endure his unreasonable tantrum and accusations.
I have to inject for him and prepare all the medicines and wash his wound.
I cant do this and that.
I cant see my mum. Even if i did, i will be questioned and lectured like a criminal.
Almost everyday i have to go thru argument, beatings, accusation, blablabla.
This went on for 7 whole years, until he passed on.
Many told me this is a good thing, as in his misery has ended and i finally break free.
Is that really what they think?
I used to think so too, but den that wasn't the case.
I came to realise that i lose him is equivalent to losing a strong pillar to lean on. Even though he couldn't do much, but knowing that he's there for me, actually helps me to brave thru anything. And when you have a dad, no one dares to even despise you. When you doesn't have one, even doing nothing wrong, i still have to endure unreasonable tell-tale stories bt me, people coming after me for things. Like them - mother and brother.
I thought from then on i can lead a peaceful life - Only me and my world.
But NO.
My mum and brother came. The minute my dad been sent into ICU, she was like demanding for his passport photo, saying that she wanna go develope it into A4 now. I was like, "for what! he's still alive and nothing's gonna happen!". But den she yelled back and said i dunno anything.
See? How heartless she can be and how eager she was anticipating for his death!
And den the minute we came back from the funeral, my brother said he wanna go town council and all to change everything to his name!
See? See how eager he was to take over everything that wasn't rightfully his!
I was totally dishearted.
and den they shifted in with me. Claiming that we are family, and that they have the responsibility to look after me.
My mum, everyday would nag at me and told me how heartless my dad was by making a will to guard them. And den she said i better dun be like him, i have to give them each 10,000 and even my brother's future kids and wife 10,000 each. And everyday she would ask me to tell my aunt that i want to sell the flat, den i can faster give her the money.
See? see how much she loves money den me.
My brother, whom appeared to be the one i can trust the most, betrayed me in the end.
He made up stories abt me and told my relatives and i slept with man, i smoke, i turned bad, i became alcoholic, i didnt go for my tests, and all. But in front of me, he said that my relatives asked about me, and he protected me and said good things for me. See? what an actor! He even told them my husband is after my money and things, and my in laws are gamblers and insane kind. I really dunno what can he derive by saying these!
When i got pregnant, and getting married, my mum told hubby's side that if i misbehave, she will sell away my child and the money will go to her. Crazy!
Den on my big day, she dragged me to one side, and said her master said someone cast a spell on me. How can she say that on my big day!
And den as a mother, she gave me nothing. She asked for so much but gave me and hubby nothing. Fine. She took all the ang baos that given by her side. Fine. My brother took all ang baos given by his friends. Fine.
These people give nothing but took everything.
The reason we asked them to move out is because, they dun pay for bills, instead they brought it to my relatives and asked them pay. And den happened that i need to buy new house too, thus have to sell. But we cant let them know we are selling. So sort of like tricking them. I dun feel bad at all seriously. If you let them know, you think i have enough to buy house and all?! So after this, they totally dun contact me and like leave me to rot like that. fine.
After i gave birth, hubby told my brother, but still, they didn't come nor a call. They totally changed their attitude immediately they knew they will get nothing. But hello, since day one, my aunt read out the will, they should know they will have nothing!
And by right in the will my dad said to sell away the house and use that money solely for my studies. But i refused, and plead to lawyer to do something about it. So, in that will, none of their names were mentioned.
After the incident she even asked my cousin to spy on me. My cousin doesn't know what kind of person she is, thus she always told me my mum cares alot bt me. But i knew what she was up to. She need to know everything about me and once she caught any chance, she will make good use of it to get what she want.
So now, i wasn't the one who disown them first.
After like 3 years, we "ended" our relationships like that. And my misery ended like that.
You think so? No. After which, i kena a cb MIL.
When we announced that im pregnant, she came to tell me to abort.
After we decided to get married, she said its not her problem.
For wedding, she done nothing a MIL should do. She didnt even clean the house or buy those necessary things. She even said she dunno how to cook tang yuan. Bullshit.
She gave nothing.
She made up stories abt me and said me and baby not her problem, and said all this 是我自己要的.
Den during confinement, she done nothing too. My aunt hired a nanny for me, and cook for me. But she told that nanny to buy grocery for her, wash for her, buy lottery for her, and even cook for her family. She even eat my food. And my aunt was the one paying everything including ingredients.
She told people that she cook for me and took out 2k for me. Where got?!
I dunno what she said to hubby and made him beat me several times.
I hate her. I hate hubby.
When i finally show colour, den she start to pretend she cares and kept complaining that i dun allow her to see baby. fuck that! you think ppl's daughter can bully for free ah! See? thats what i meant by, when i lose a pillar, ppl start to despise me.
This went one for nearly 2 years.
And now i finally break free!!!
7 + 3 + 2 = 12 years!
我吃苦吃了正正十二年!
They say a life changes every 10 years. And a fortune teller told me those unpleasant years have passed and from now my life is turning good. I hope so.
Having been thru all these, i have learn to be more humble.
I dare not ask for more nor set a high expectation for others. I no longer go for luxury stuffs or trying to lead a high end lifestyle that isn't meant for me.
All i want is to be happy.
If you know me well, i guess yo should know i am so dying to be happy, and even small lil things can make me happy. I became so easily contented.
And being happy is not enough, i want it to last forever.
I can starve. I can have no make ups and nice clothes, but as long as my husband love me faithfully and my kids grow up to be sensible and kind :)
I dun need my kids to repay me or give me lotsa money. As long as they know i have given alot to this family and i love them so dearly and equally much.
Maybe this is the reason why i am so firm when we came to parenting topics.
Please pay more attention to your lovely child. remember those moments when he/she still kicking in your tummy? Remember how well both of you bonded? Remember the first time ur child smiled at you?
Money and branded stuffs can never helps to bring back those important moments. Clubbing too much wont helps to make your future days more brighter.
Love them and be there for them before you start to regret and realise that they dun love their mother and father that much.
12 years - I have lost many ppl. Good or bad. Even now i became lonesome, in a way, but at least in future i believe my life is more joyful den any others :D
p/s: I really hope this can somehow motivate some of you. At least in realising something before its too late.
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8:52 PM
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Hello Hello :D
Daddy's blog is up again.
Click on the name there <<<
daddyquek.blogspot.com
I edited till like 12 midnight can?! knn.
But i totally dig that layout. I love it! But i think mine not bad too. LOL.
Anyway, i dunno whats he's gonna blog about this time round. Just go and read lah, ( and i know some ppl are kpo enough to follow la) hahahaha.
Will be back to update soon. Jayr doesn't allow me to blog now. He wanna watch HI 5. Like 20 over times per day. argh. His favourite is still the "Spin me round", after a while.
Ok till then!
p/s: thanks all for the lovely messages be it here, FB, on my mobile.... LOL! I totally love you girlies. Like you made my day :D Really im happy bcuz of YOU!!!!!
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9:32 AM
.Thursday, September 10, 2009 Y
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Happy Birthday To Me [:
haha. in the end i still cant resist posting Jayr's video. LOL.
But damn lag lah!
(^-^)Y
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2:10 PM
.Wednesday, September 9, 2009 Y
Hubby called this afternoon and asked me to make almond jelly :p
LOL. Maybe because im always craving for almond jelly with longan, so he actually bought the powder and ask me to make it myself and den we will have more to eat. Like if you bought it from dessert stall, they usually give you like only pathetic 5 pieces the most, and den few balls of longan. wth. So like i made it myself and den i have such a huge amount! And den later im gonna open a can of cold longan and make good use of my new blender to crush some ice. Wow! More like for a party. LOL. But believe me, we can finish it within minutes. hahaha.
Do you notice the pink board there <<<
Yea. Its something like twitter. Allows me to post short instant message. Like i decided to put up this is because im always too tired, lazy and busy to blog la, and many ppl are like so concern abt me and my well beings, moreover i seldom logon msn, so here, this is quite good in use :)
So like from now on, focus on that thing. When i never update new post, i will at least post all the bits there. Happiness, sadness, joy, hao-lian-ing, hahaha. whatever la. :D
Anyway i have changed the song too. Everytime we touch - Cascada.
The slow version la. Very nice. Like ppl who know me well should know i dun fancy techno la. So the slow version is just nice. The meaning is good too :)
I have posted a new video on FB.
None other then Jayr Quek la. LOL.
Very funny. So cute. But i dun wan to post it here. so lag!
OK. you know whats the next big thing???
YEAH!
TOMORROW IS INES'S BIRTHDAY :D
So >>>
1 :D
p/s: i have a topic to blog about but after my bday la. Hohoho!
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5:26 PM
.Tuesday, September 8, 2009 Y
Last night we wanted to take down Jayr's dancing moment. He did dance initially, but den dunno why when we wanted to video, he did these sot sot actions. LOL.
p/s: i will never upload video here anymore. so slow!
p/p/s: Jayr is now hugging me tightly and kissing me non stop. Half of my face got his saliva sia. LOL. He refused to let go! hahahahahahaha. so sweet :D
here he goes again :p
Now my lips and nose got his saliva. (-__-)
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3:20 PM
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For the umpteen times, i felt that singapore government should do something about the courtesy campaign or you know, emphasize MORE on the civic and moral subject.
1st - Hubby called me and told me to bring Jayr to meet him at tampines mall for dinner. So both me and Jayr walked slowly to the nearby bus stop and board a bus. The seats were fully taken, including those reserved seats. I dun mind about the reserved seats as in they were all senior citizens whom couldn't even stand firmly enough. But what about the rest?! Students, young adults, healthy and able people. You know i was like so disappointed with each and everyone of them. So cruel!!! A preggy carrying a child standing while the bus was moving! Not only inconsiderate, but also CRUEL! They even have the cheeks to keep looking at us like visitors looking at animals like that! nabeh cb. One day their wife, daughter, sister will get pregnant too! or even themselves!
2nd - Once we boarded train during peak hour. So expected it will be very packed la. Den when i finally saw there's a seat available, i carefully walked towards it... and den, a YOUNG MAN dashed out and sat on it. YOUNG MAN snatched seat with preggy!!! He even looked up at me and den gave me the "do i give it a damn" look. chao chee bye. Luckily i was calm enough, otherwise i really feel like kicking him in his face. And the rest sat beside was like looking and amazed by his behavior, yet said nothing. No one fight for a preggy, bcuz they were the same examples ma! Dun give up seat and dun bother at all. Especially those still have the cheek to sit on the reserved seats and pretended nothing wrong abt it.
So far, the worst i have encountered is the one on the bus. Terrible right?
Its like we alone cant do anything abt it. So the sibeh eng government should do something about it. I mean like they asked Gurmit Singh to sing about the courtesy thing but den only publish it on train and train station. Telecast it on TV too!!! dumbass! And den keep emphasize about it and also make headlines! Not only for preggy but also for old folks. You know sometimes they also need us preggy to give up seats to them? And sometimes they give up seats to me? Like hello, old people give up seat to preggy and preggy to old people. So pathetic!!!!
Anyway, i think i have counted wrongly. LOL. So now.... Lets count with me >>>
3 :D
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9:08 AM
.Sunday, September 6, 2009 Y
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8:47 PM
.Saturday, September 5, 2009 Y
Tummy pain and den chest pain. And den Hubby was asking me do i wanna go hospital, and of cuz i said NO. But den he kept nagging and den insisted that i must go. So bo bian, we went and den they kept me in the room and monitor me for an hour plus. This and that, and at the end, i still dunno what are the causes. KKH, this kind of standard la.
You know, i dun really care that much when tummy pain bcuz i know my body very well. I am not fit to go thru pregnancy, and also again after such a short period of time.
Anyway, i have things to blog about. But not today. Bcuz today and tomo Hubby wont be working, thus this lappy will be conquer by him! knn.
Anyway, i dun think he give a shit bt how i feel or my health. fuck that.
Lets count down with me >>>
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6 :D
p/s: yesterday didnt get the chance to blog, so have to add in 7 here :D
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7:08 PM
.Thursday, September 3, 2009 Y
Woke up very early in the morning. Like 7 am??? And den Hubby was like nagging and bugging me to hurry get up and get ready. To where? Market lah! knn.
From my place to market is like 10 to 15 mins walk. Dun expect preggy to walk any faster den this. *roll eyes* Anyway, weather so hot, im damn moody. But better up by my favourite breakfast - McGriddles with egg :D
These few days he has to work from morning to night. Like whole day long only me and Jayr at home. Boring! Whatever lah. I better dun care too much.
Btw, i serve nuffnang! :D
Hopefully able to gain some bucks lah. I dun expect alot thou.
So ask your friends, your sisters, your aunties, your ah ma, your whoever to read. LOL!
Joking.
Maybe today im in a foul mood. I try to post something more entertaining tomo ok.
I can tell Jayr's feeling bored. But can he feel that im feeling bored too?
(-_______-)....... zzZZzzZzZz
Lets count down with me >>>
8 :D
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6:02 PM
.Wednesday, September 2, 2009 Y
Nothing much today.
Hubby working from morning 7am to night 10 pm.
Stupid staff mc last minute one.
Anyway, im following the new drama 福氣又安康。
Nice. Should watch.
ok.
Lets count down with me >>>
9 :D
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7:59 PM
.Tuesday, September 1, 2009 Y
(命中注定我愛你) - Watched 2 times, cried 2 times.
“你可以不喜欢我，但是不可以傷害我的孩子。。。我求求你！我不要！不要簽！”
-everytime this part, this scenario, makes me cry like a silly fool :(
Watch it if you haven.
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10:16 PM
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Jayr is soooo not kind to me anymore :(
sob sob~
Like when i scolded him, he would like "ginn" me. You know "ginn" (in hokkien)?
Nabeh. This brat is very "xia lan" lor.
But i love watching him dance whenever he heard music. So cute. Like everyday there will be more and more new patterns. Lol.
My new favourite food is - home cooked soup macoroni :D
Whats not good bt it? Like you can add in anything you like, compared to those kopitiam's.
Im gonna go but cheese sauce and cheese and make cheesy macoroni! :D
Its already September. Very soon it will be my birthday.
I dun feel good. you know la... as usual. Always emo on birthday. i got this kinda feeling that i wont receive anything. *shrugs*
But what to expect right? Have received so much last month. Lol.
Anyway, lets all count down with me >>>
10 :D
p/s: after watching the video, i asked hubby will he pity the man. He said no. He said after this argument, must add in diamond and branded bags and posh restaurant and flowers, den the woman might forgive him. I was like (-_-")... *roll eyes* you men too belittle us liao lah!
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4:35 PM
Ines QuekY
Jacky's Wife
Jayr's Mother
Chace's Mother
Your Rolemodel :p
Jacky's Wife