XY told me that stupid mead johnson's milk powder has increased the prices again! damn. Hello, $54.70 per tin is already VERY expensive and den now they wanna suck more from us? Its like few months ago they just increased the price and den now they do it again. Just how many more times? And ever since they got this 3x more DHA, they are like seizing the chance to chop us. Btw, i can tell from the fast grabbing of milk powder from the shelves, they are actually having more and more supporters already, and now they still think they have no enough for profits? fuck them. Trying so hard to make ur products so high end for what fuck. argh. Impossible to change to other brand for Jayr wat. argh. And initially i have decided to give the same to no 2, but now i think have to reconsider again. During Jayr time, Enfalac was selling at $37.60, and den now it became $41.80. I dunno after this recent increase how much would it be. I really have no fancy in other brand la... Bcuz i can see the amazing result in Jayr, you see... Even doctors and nurses said Jayr is progressing faster and steadier den others. hehehe.

Went swimming yesterday morning. The complex here is fantastic. The pool facilities is like 2nd wild wild wet. Should bring ur child there to play. Jayr was all excited and so kan jiong to go in the pool. For like 2 hours, he didnt allow hubby to stop and rest for a second. He demanded daddy to bring him around, and play superman with him in the pool. He walked the whole pool again and again. I was like soaking at one spot for 2 hours. LOL. I felt a relieve whenever im in the pool. Like the blue wide sky is above and the clear cooling water is surrounding me. Only then i can totally relax and forget bt those worries and sorrow. Jayr's laughters brightened my day :)

Few days ago, Hubby insisted to bring me to our usual fortune teller. I didnt feel better after that. I only feel that whatever karma and life im leading is totally unfair. Its all about previous life's debt im paying. She want me to forgive Hubby and forgive his mum, i said no way i will forgive her, but i can try to forgive Hubby for the sake of this family, i am willing to give it a try AGAIN. She told hubby bt the problems im facing and feeling im going thru. She lectured him. But there is no way when she wan me to forgive that woman. I said, why noone tell her to stop her doings and backstabbings instead? why must the victim always have to endure all and forgive? Bullier should be punished and not be forgiven so easily bcuz they wont give a shit bt it. I told her its not only one time or two, its like many times untill i gave up and chose to live my own life without this woman. She asked me why do i wanna give up everything including hubby just bcuz of her? The first thing she saw me she said she can tell im giving up everything including my life. And she said if i have the ability i already bring my son and leave this relationship. I said yes to all. Since she can read me so clearly, wats there to say? She said i am kind, i wont revenge but i just dun wan to have anything to do with the person i hate or hurt me. Ya true. So dun expect me to let her into me and Jayr's life. Feeling terrible den go ask yourself wat have you done and not done! Dun expect everyone to pity you and forgive you! When you bullied me, have you ever pity me?

Anyway, she told hubby to spend more time understand me and me to start trusting him. And also me to not to commit suicide.

So funny. I wont do such thing ok! Jayr needs me i wont die like that. And i dun have the gut to do so either.

Maybe i should learn to say, I love Jayr............. and Hubby. *shivered*

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