.Tuesday, April 28, 2009 Y
Oh. Im so totally engrossed with Gossip Girl 2. For some reason i stopped watching it the other time, which i dunno why too. But now im back on track! The story is so shocking, as in this guy with this girl, and that with that. Totally un-matchable! Maybe i should start to get back on L word too :p
Vomiting started. How i wish to end my life now, if this misery wont stop immediately. Feel so sickening every second. What's so great bt pregnancy?! Oh. There's one- No Mense for jolly 9 whole months. Other den that i dun remember i miss any of those days when i was having Jayr in me, except that i still have some freedom then. And when Jayr was born, i was kinda sad when i realised he's no longer in me, feeling my mood and belong with me, solely.
Im craving for chicken wings. *roll eyes* euuuuu! Meat!
But im still craving for it badly now. wth. I want those BBQ ones, not those deep fried kind.
And i also in love with Kway Chap nowadays. eeuuuuuu! Pork!
What to do? I dunno what's wrong with my taste buds lately. I've got this kinda grossy feeling like i can only accept those food that i craves for, other den that i would just feel like puking out.
Anyway, have you been to the new shopping mall in tamp? Tampines One.
Quite lotsa shops and yummy stalls and restaurants. I love the japanese confectionary- Yamazaki. Their breads are nice to see and nice to eat too. lol. And they got few maternity stores and kiddies one too.
Think the "high peak period" is over now. So not so crowded anymore. BUT, still dun come here during weekends or PHs.
House is in the process of renovation. The contractor keeps calling to ask this and that. So "efficient". *roll eyes* Anyway im glad we rely on this contractor, as in he is very willing to meet ur expectation with no arguements or buts. And during these period, he called a few times to ask me whether do i wanna change to another design of toilet bowls, sink or sink bowl, and all these are more expensive than the one in the contract we have agreed. Guess what? He's doing it for me with NO additional charges. So like eg, im having TopShop at the price of cottons on! get it?
Ok. Done here. Im almost puking on lappy soon.
Chao!
.Saturday, April 25, 2009 Y
My morning sickness is starting soon. I can feel it. Kind of uncomfortable and gross. Most of the time i feel dizzy and sleepy. Whenever i stood up, the dizziness came(black out). And den whenever i've finished eating, the nauseous-ness came too. (it will occur around 6-8 weeks) I haven seen doctor yet, so right now i dunno how many weeks im preggy! lol.
OH GOD! Now i loathe pregnancy.................
I seriously loathe the 1st trimester. Like as if permanently sick like that.
Headache. Dizzy. Nauseous. Heartburn. Short breathe. Feverish. Hot feet and Hot palms. Sleepy.
This pregnancy, i dun have any craving or dun even have appetite. I never finished a bowl of anything. I am more interested in fruits and drinks. Not even my favourite soup- I just dun like anything salty. Maybe i prefer something FRESH and abit sweet (not too sweet).
Hubby have gone to our house to take a look. Just received a call from him, and he said they are doing the tiling and flooring and lighting. I cant go! Thats why i've said i dun wanna get preggy now, cuz i wanna join in the making of our house and the deco part too. But now, everything seems like not my problem anymore. argh. Anyway, he's coming home now with my lunch. Sibeh hungry ah.
Next week, we are going to hunt for those miscs, like mirrors, lights, household holders for the toilets and kitchen. So that they can help us to drill and hook it up. Den 1 week before the handover, we will be going to Ikea or any other store to hunt for those household things, foldable chairs, coffee table, mini short cupboard, and blablabla.
I tell you, living in Singapore is NOT CHEAP lor. If i am being given a chance to choose, i would rather stay in other country where noone knows me. I WANT PEACE. And den make sure the country have 4 seasons-especially winter!!! I would love it to core man!
If only Genting got apartment on sale. LOL! I dun mind to live there forever. No more sweating or skin burning sensation. Den ask hubby go work in their casino, since he loves gambling so much and i dun allow him to gamble. So he can work and sooth his itches while working. LOL. But no schools for my kids!!! wth. think too much...........
Yesterday, while shopping, I told hubby that names starting with letter J is so common nowadays. Like i couldn't find any nice and unique name for no.2. Moreover it has to be something easy to pronounce too. *roll eyes* Den he said to choose other letter, but den cant make up his mind on which letter. So i suggested that, when we know the gender liao, den i will write the 26 letters in small pieces of paper den ask Jayr to draw one. wahahahaha. smart right? So like Jayr also got do a part in this naming ma. hohoho! So till then!
p/s: last night somebody msn me right? Hubby was using the lappy and i already dozed off. And den he said he accidentally close the chat page so dunno who msn me. who? who? who?
.Friday, April 24, 2009 Y
Think i need a new hairdo. This cut is getting boring. Either im gonna cut it shorter den before or grow it slightly longer. What do u think? Few ppl told me to try short bangs, den i was like, "den 面不是很大咯 ?!" Moreover when i preggy, my face will turn bloated soon. Hai...... Just lost so much weight and den now im gaining back all again! wth. But i swear this time round i wont eat like a monster like the previous pregnancy. Eat with moderation. Avoid those sinful things. hahahaha. Easy to say la. Whichever preggy doesn't crave for ice cream or chocolate??? I tell you, all LOVES them! lol. Especially cold cold thing. Bcuz preggy's body tempreture is higher den usual, thus they will tend to feel more warm den anyone of you.
Going out soon. Heading to Marina Sq bcuz preggy Ines craving for their korean food. wahahahahaha. And only Marina sq's one. LOL.
I tell you, my hubby is 10000000x more hardworking den previous time. This time as long as i say i wanna eat this or that, he would definitely go and buy or make sure bring me there on his off day. wooooooosh!
.Thursday, April 23, 2009 Y
Last night finally had a short chat with I, and she told me something that i dunno all the while. She said that if i got pregnant within 3 years, i will have the high possibility of going c-sect again! I was so shocked and seriously noone told me bt this! fuck kkh. see? How much they heck care bt this important infos.
Den i msn-ed with J, i told her this too, and she said ya, she have learnt bt that too. omg! Even she also know bt that and i dunno! wth.
Den last night i was being moody all the while. Hubby came over to ask me what happened. I didnt say anything. But ended up sobbing uncontrollably.
Me: 我不要生了啦！
Den i told him everything, with sobbing still continue.
He: 不要害怕。沒事的啦。如果same thing happen, 我這一次一定complain到地。
Me: wa lau! complain 有屁用啊！
He: 不會有事的啦。如果有錢，一定給你去好的。可是真的 bo bian ma.
Ponder for a few minutes...
Me: 我要你 promise, after this 我不要再生了 huh!!!
He: 好啦！好啦！silly girl... 可以睡了嗎？
This is the first time i hope he can strike lottery soon! Den i dun need to end up in kkh going thru every shit again. The ugly theatre. The inconsiderate nurses and doctors. The unkind treatment. The lousy facilities. The pathetic small amt of food. The stingy goody bag.
I DUN WAN KKH!!!!!
.Wednesday, April 22, 2009 Y
Im so pissed with myself. So fucked up and how else fucked up can it be huh?!
Everything bt me is always chin chay!
Wedding chin chay.
Labour chin chay.
Confinement chin chay.
EVERYTHING CHIN CHAY!!!
Who can i blame? NOONE!
This is my "salted-vege" life wat. Im not supposed to taste even a tiny bits of luxury! Let alone doing things normally like everyone else!
You know, feel lucky that you have supportive parents or mils, cuz when u in need there's still them lending you helping hands. Me? Nothing! I am so invisible that even when im vanished into the thin air and no one will knows bt it!
Having been thru the horror during the previous labour, what i can do is to avoid the same thing right? But no! I have no right to choose! I have to still go kkh, cant appoint doctor, cant choose better ward, no nothing! So like if i suay suay have to undergo the knife again, i will have to tolerate the way they treated me in the theatre! They dun care a shit bt my feeling. They dun understand when i said i can feel the pain. They dun care that i need help to go to the loo. After labour they just leave me there to rot! To do everything by myself!
You know what men, unless you can provide ur woman with better ward and better doctor, den its ok to make her pregnant and go thru this "great" process. if you cant, den jolly well follow the rules of precaution!!! make her pregnant and den cant give her security?! and den tell her it supposed to be like this! fuck you! knowing what she have been thru and have this phobia, but do you care?! NO NO NO!!! you are just pushing her nearer and nearer to hell gate!
I cant blame you. Just blame myself for choosing this path!
And blame myself for taking over ur family's last name! fuck that to core!!!
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Yea. I totally agreed with most you that its wiser to go for better doctor or hospital. However, the problem is that kkh provides more subsidise and of cuz, cheaper la.
I dunno. How? Like every week visitation not cheap lor, if without sub.
Anyway, im more interested in Thomson Medical. Compass point has a gynaecology clinic which is lias with TMH. More convenient for me. Now i am very concern bt the consultation and misc costs. Anyone has experience with TMH???
This pregnancy is different. I have no appetite at all. I feel hungry but feel more like vomiting. gosh. I cant eat alot at one go.
Jayr seems so "sticky" nowadays. Though his all-time favourite is daddy but now, ever since im preggy, he will like come and lie on my body, kiss me, or keep looking at me den expect my smile for him. Wan me to carry as and when. Will come laying on my lap and den pretend like a lil infant. If i scold him he will be more sad and angry den before. Amazing right? I wonder how he knows bt it.
I've estimated my due date. Roughly around 15th January bah. Still a bull baby right???
.Monday, April 20, 2009 Y
I have been wondering why im not feeling a thing at all for this baby. No anticipation. No overwhelming excitement. Full of frustration and frighten-ness. Having went thru the horror during my previous labour, i dare not brave thru this shit again. This is like a repeating nightmare that came taunting me over and over again.
(Ppl whom dunno what had happened exactly- READ>)
I was kept waiting and monitoring in the labour ward for 10 hours. Had the empidural but not that scary as told. That fucking drip on my hand is 10x more painful lor! Came a doctor to break my water bag. Around 4+am i vividly heard the nurse saying something like, "oh dear! my fault. my fault. my mistake." I was alarmed and also left puzzled. Just as i wanted to ask, she was gone. Minutes later, came all the doctors on duty (about 4), they were busy checking this and that and den one male senior came to stuff his fingers in me and den said, "for 10 hours, you only dilate bt 3 cm..." He den continued to explain to me that this slow dilation caused the fetal distress. Baby was showing some distress such as heartbeat went low. And he said the best solution is to go for operation immediately. Upon hearing that, part of me wanna dash out and run away, another part told me that for the sake of Jayr i must brave thru this. Ok. Here comes the horror part. They took off everything on me and left me totally nude on the operation table. Both my hands tied by something so solid that i couldn't escape at all, my legs too. I asked one of them to top up more enpidural for me cuz the last tube i had was hours ago. She said, this would be fine and they shall see how. (before that i had 2 already) I heard one of them saying, "Ok. Lets start now." I forced myself to think of something pleasant to distract myself but i couldn't cuz i suddenly felt a shape blade drew across my abdominal. I said calmly to the one besides me, "pain. i can feel the pain." She said this is normal and shld be this way. wtf? I have no experience so i shut up. Den, i felt both hands forcefully trying to tear apart my tummy and den stuff both hands into my tummy!!! The hands inside were like trying to stir around as if looking for something. "pain... pain.... PAIN!!!!! I DUN WAN!!!! PAIN!!!!!!!!" I remembered i screamed as loud as i have never did before. Despite hands and legs being tied up so tightly i still tried every best to struggle and screamed. Immediately after the screaming, i fainted. Its either i fainted bcuz of the HUGE pain or they finally gave me more drugs.
I have been put on drip for 5 days just to wash off the loads of drugs in me. I felt numb for 3 days. See how much my body needs in order to make me feel numb? This shows that i have a very determine soul. hohoho. Anyway, i dunno what kind of labour i will have for this. But i have the feeling i will go thru c-sect again. As in i have prob with dilation and also my wound still hurts. Whatever fate brings.
Have collected our keys today. Went up to the house to change lock and all. I love it when the HDB officer said, "Now you are the owner of this house." wahahahaha! Renovation starts in few days time.
oh ya! ate the delicious siew mais too!
.Sunday, April 19, 2009 Y
.Friday, April 17, 2009 Y
Tomorrow we will be having dinner with hubby's colleagues. Supposed to be their company sponsored dinner but dunno why me and Jayr are counted in as well. Which restaurant? I dunno. lol.
Sunday- Our property agent will be meeting at our new place for last inspection. Whatsoever thats for, i have no idea. Maybe to inspect whether the seller have dismantle anything illegally or not and whether the house is still in good condition or not. Better still! Otherwise i'll scream on top of my lungs! (to sort of venting out all my frustration too) argh.
Monday- The Glamorous Day! To receive our long awaited GOLDEN KEYS. In other words, i have a house of MY OWN!!! wahahaha! So gotta head down to HDB hub for 2nd appointment and den sign this and that. (forever documents) Pay a 5 digits amount for the remaining COV. (go google if u dunno! stop asking!) And, i must remember to apply for the government gas. All on that day. Den after that, gotta rush back to our new house to meet up with our contractor, for changing of locks and also take some more measurements. GOSH! This is so ADULT lo! haha. I mean i am doing/handling everything that i once thought only concern to adults. I AM AN 100% ADULT!!! lol. wtf. From the day im preggy and married, i shld know better den anyone that i am already an adult. dotz. oh, and thats few months before i got my legal 21st key.
Regarding my "tummy"- Auntie still haven come, or is she really not coming for the next 9 months??? gosh. I need the answer now. I think i better test it sooner rather den remaining like a sick-worried panic rat. Like i have realised i am eating junks all this while! argh. A big NO NO if im having bb inside. So better to know the answer now so that i can prepare myself for the better ya. This is the fact, i cant deny!
(Btw, i have secretly went thru that Baby Names book yesterday. hehehe! Since hubby insist all must start with letter J, den i have decided to name my girl JEWEL. wanna know why? Cuz JEWEL means PRECIOUS GEM and definitely she will be my precious too! hehe. The rest of the Js are like too common or the meaning not good enough. I can be very particular when comes to the meaning. oh, and i dun like long long name with lots of alphabets.
Initially thought of naming my girl with the letter I, same as me what. But den other den INES, i couldnt find any nicer one. LOL!!! No la, "I" really consists very lil of collections.
And i used to imagine that to name my girl JOLIE, cuz i like angelina jolie. haha. But den for long term, when she turn old still call JOLIE, very funny lo!
JEWEL is not only a most appropriate name with the most appropriate meaning, but also this name gives me a feel of elegancy, glamour, classic, feminine, demure, adorable.
haa! For boy??? I dunno yet. I dun wan to search for it. Cuz i want a girl!!! But if i really have a boy, den shall see ba. Cuz there isnt any better name with better meaning that start with J!!! argh. and also cannot crash with other ppl's kids' name too right.
All along, i like the name "JORDON". But too common hor?)
Im waiting for my dinner now. So fucking hungry. Curry chicken on the way! woosh! You wanna know what i've been eating for these past few days? CHICKEN RICE. hohoho! i am always craving for chicken rice. dunno y. But i dun like meat. So i am only in love with the garlic rice together with the chilli. marvelous!
And my hubby will always make it a point to add egg, prickles, blablabla. Den ended up my packet is a BIG BIG one.
Although he didnt mention anything bt my "tummy", but i know he cares and he knows i am vexing over this. And only when im preggy den my food will be like mountain high like that. So, from the food, i know. lol.
He's the kind of man who is super overprocessive type. When im his, i will be forever his. Like as if only he can hurt me but i cannot. U know what i mean? Like only he can have me but others cannot. If he cant have me, he will also not let others have me. Now you understand? So after every arguements or fights, he knew very well i was giving up and wanted to leave. So within the minute he will be very regret and den tried all his way to coax me. But u know, as time goes by, this is kind of numb to me already. I am no longer feeling fast heartbeats or goosebumps.
Very easy. All i wanna is that he dun do anything to hurt me when hes in a lousy mood or whatever. If im at the wrong, which is never, but if, den i can accept any punishment. But den if i am in no wrong and den he just wanna vent his frustration on someone, this i cannot tolerate. Seriously, if he wan me to forgive him, den better think and learn what he have done is wrong. And never repeat! Not like here say, den there do. Whats the point?!
Seriously, very difficult to forgive.
I have start talking to him and joke ard too. Den, guess what? Ya, all the sweetness gone! wtf. I've told you, men can never maintained something at some level one!!!
I am someone whom asked for alot of LOVE. And be my lover, he has to give me the kind of love which is at the level that he can provide me with till the end.
When everything turns sour, bland, toned down, i will start to react hysterically.
I mean this is how women feels and how men fails at this simple task.
Nonetheless, besides his craziness, if he's good, he can be so super wonderful that all women and wives envy me. But when he's nasty, even heaven also feel like striking him with lightning.
Overall, he's a super good daddy.
p/s: if im not preggy, den why im feeling uncomfortable for 3 weeks and auntie late for almost 2 weeks. is there other possibility?
p/p/s: even if i never have daughter this time round, NOBODY can use the name JEWEL!!! too many copycats out there, so i have to voice out first! even ur child also must copy mine huh?! wa lau. JEWEL is reserved for INES'S daughter. I will have daughter in future!!!
*bleah* :p
.Thursday, April 16, 2009 Y
I'll treat that everything has went back to norm.
I mean, lets treat that.
Besides that, nothing is the best solution for now.
Before hurling out your "hurtful" comments, kindly proceed to read on before you start.
I THINK im pregnant.
Oh this time is way more "true" den the previous false alarm.
I have been feeling like this uncomfortable for weeks. My mense is late for a week plus.
Imma feeling fatigue, dizzy, nauseous, breasts sore, dark areola, headache, cramp, feverish.
I haven got the gut to buy test kit and test. I wanna give it one more week.
I didn't even wanna mention this here at all, but i think i couldn't help it anymore.
1. I dun wan ppl to misjudge my dignity.
2. I need to at least clarify why i changed my mind so sudden.
3. I need a place to voice out my frustration.
You asking me whether im happy now?
My answer is NO.
This is definitely NOT fair to the baby inside. (if there's is)
Weirdly, i dun feel excited nor overjoy at all. Instead, i got this guilt and regretfulness. Guilty for not feeling happy for this new life. Regret for allowing this to happened.
I am vex over how am i going to provide for one more?
Everything has been not-enough-state, and yet one more on the way to worsen this.
I thought by the time Jayr turn 2 i can finally go out and work, but this can never be happened if one more lil thing is on the way to join us. I have the responsibility to look after.
I dun have mother. I dun have father. I dun have grannies. My aunts are working. I have noone who can help me with this. Do not come and tell me bt baby sitters. I will not allow my children to go thru the same thing as me. This i have swear a million times. I wan my children to receive the parental loves they deserves. I dun wan them to feel neglected nor wan them to feel distance with us. I know how it feels to have no papa or mama with me. I used to envy all my schoolmates. I dun wan my kids to feel the same way.
'Fraid not. I am not the sort of mother who think for myself and my current situation and den dun wan this baby. No matter how hard, how poor, how tough, i will never give up on either one of them. Heaven give them to me, because HE dun wan me to feel lonely anymore. This is FATE that bound us together; Letting this baby grow in me. Heaven give them a chance to live and i cant DENY their only chance to survive right? And of cuz, i cant bear to hurt my own flesh and blood.
Given that, with my current situation, having this kind of man as husband, i submit to fate.
I mean what else can i say or do. From the moment i gotta know i was having Jayr, i knew that everything is VERY wrong. I didn't wanna go for abortion, never even thought about it. I want this baby, meaning i have to marry him. This aint no drama like you can give birth but dun marry. I still have ancestors and older relatives to face. In order for everyone to acknowledge this baby, i have to follow the correct procedure. But deep down, i know this is wrong. I wont be happy.
By submitting to fate, i have to learn to endure more shits from him and his side. I have to learn to close both eyes.
Never did i think this 2nd pregnancy would happen so soon. I thought i never wanna continue this shit with him for long. Just as i wanted to leave, there's always something pop out to stop the tragedy. Was the Heaven tying us together again? I am so used to it that i think Heaven is seriously watching over me. Whenever i decided to leave or give up, there's surely something to stop me. Maybe these are the challenges i have to overcome alone.
After every incidents, i think my tolerance level raises higher den before. One after another. I think imma half deity now. whatever. I am not so benevolence. I am somebody who will forever remember who caused me shits.
Almost everytime i can forgive.
But i know i have my limit too.
Which is, adultery affair!
If this is gonna happen, i cant guarantee what will i do. But one thing for sure is, house is mine from the very beginning till the end. Children are mine, from the day they grow in me till i die. So, think before you fuck. YOU will be the one losing EVERYTHING. i will make sure of this.
Thanks all whom concern.
Thanks but no advices needed.
.Saturday, April 11, 2009 Y
GIVE UP ON ME
CUZ IM GIVING UP ON MYSELF
thanks but sorry.
.Wednesday, April 8, 2009 Y
THERE'S NO TURNING BACK.
ACCEPT IT.
I NEED HELP!!!
. Y
Yesterday, after Hubby came home from work, we went to marine parade. Intended to go Giant to get 2 boxes of Pampers as they are having this promo till 9th. (The flyer printed 3 boxes for $60 but in the end they said printing error therefore became 2 boxes at $60) You know what??!! No stock. That tampines Giant also doesnt have the size we want too. Nabeh!!! Last week saw it at Vivo but my clever old man said better go tampines buy den dun need to carry all the way from Vivo to Tamp. See lah?! Dun wan to buy dun have liao lor! ccb. NTUC's promo ended too. Just my luck!
I wonder can Jayr's butt accept the cheaper range ones??? hmm. 很重本啊！His milk powder price increasd to almost $55 per tin. And i saw the step one now selling at $40+!!! wow! so my next kid drink wat???
Everything went up. Even toiletries and all. crazy government.
And and and!!! Stupid Government ask everyone to save electricity thus almost all shopping centres felt like suana! crazy right? ok mayb i am being too sarcastic but the fact is they lower the tempreture of the air-conditioner and even while walking around in supermarket also felt so torturing lo. Oh pls! Not in this month lor! Singapore on this whole planet is just a tiny weeny un-seem-able bit of land like that, by torturing us this way can help much meh? All NTUCs are WARM. Now i prefer to go cold storage and others. Not bcuz they are called COLD storage lah, but bcuz mayb they are not under government thus they dun bother bt the "order".
They can tell us to use recycle bag instead of plastic bags bcuz they have done research and shows that Singapore uses many times more plastic bags in year then a much larger country like Europe. Ok so this i lan lan. "Small dot" wins "big patch" over the amount of usage. Amazing!
I wanna watch Gossip Girls but that webbie i used to frequent is now uber lag and slow kind. wth.
I need a new mobile, BUDDHA!!!
Hubby bought 3 sets of DVDs. I have something to watch finally!
Gosh. My head is spinning again. Paracetamol is my new friend. Think i have permanent headache. Argh. have been feeling sick for the past 2 weeks. I am forever sleepy! Am i dying???
12 more days we will get our GOLDEN keys. *golden as in precious lah deh.
i cannot take it anymore. im going to zzzzzzzzz.
whats happening to me??? PMS?
.Tuesday, April 7, 2009 Y
Now den i know you are a big
兩頭蛇！！！
WHY?????
Wanna dig more stories from me and hear what i've got to say of her den you will go tell her right?!
You know what?! I dun give it a damn at all!!!
Its better for her to know and NOW, for you to know too!!!
Bloody ccb!
Dun come and tell me bullshit reasons. I aint gonna buy that!!!
AND, since when both of you keep in touch huh?
I thought you "dunno" her she "dunno" you???
Assholes!
Dun ask me who im referring to. Cuz i know YOU will ask me WHO. And its impossible to answer "YOU LAH!!!".
You know its you and you wanna hear the truth from me? Go eat shit.
Hur hur. 我這麼相信你！把你当“好”朋友！算我笨！！！
.Sunday, April 5, 2009 Y
Oh man. Im bored to hell!!!
You know wat? im actually clicking here and there but nothing for me to do! Like on weekends, this internet is fucking lag. I cant watch my drama online. I cant download songs. Argh.
Not a soul on msn. Noone to chat with. What!? Like when i was so busy and tied up everyone's like nudging or messaging me. But now that im so free, noone is there. boohoo.
I think i wanna change.
Change to a better person.
Better everything.
Provided no interference by annoying ones again.
I wont hesistate to *roar*.
Firstly, lets start with demolishing the walls that i have built around myself. By this, i will be more approachable right?
Secondly, lets start with practicing to ignore all nuisances or upset bits. By this, i will rant less and criticise less right?
Thirdly, lets start to blog in a more welcoming, heartwarming, friendly which i used to be.
BUT,,,
will those ppl i used to tell off, be reminded that not to cross the line AGAIN?
Like you wan me to make u feel comfortable after reading my post. And i wan to feel comfortable whenever i online or reading those comments too.
So here's the deal:
You watch ur steps; Do not cross the line i've laid.
I forgo bt those irritating incidents and start to treat everyone friendly and fairly.
SO,,,
Deal Or Not Deal???
p/s: to those whom have sms-ed me for greeting Jayr's birthday, thanks ALOT! i didnt realise untill the next day when i off and on my phone. nabeh. this phone is dying at me anytime from now. so pls dun blame me for not replying right away. THANKS AGAIN!!! you ppl are so sweeeeeetttt!!! :D
. Y
ALOHA!
Have many things to blog about but i have lil time only :(
Have uploaded all the pictures onto FB. And my hubby have posted a FEW on his bloggy. Few only lah. So like i've said, go create a FB acct lah. :p
Den add me at jackinesquek@hotmail.com
Browsing thru those pics, i think i have to say, Jayr is a real charm! hohoho! 迷死人la!
Jayr's birthday cake is SUPER yummy! CA chocolate hazelnut crunch from Ben & Jerry. Its mousse cake. Tastes almost like ferrero rocher or kinder brueno. (if you not know, actually both are from the same company) So its a must try!!!
Hubby bought him gold bracelet and gold chain with gold pendent. Such a lucky brat right?
Didnt go for the flyer :( But managed to sit in the mini ferry wheel located at Costa Sand.
Check this out!!! http://www.downtowneast.com.sg/promotions/
I highly recommend all parents to bring ur family down this April for this cheap promotion! Go read under the colume: Fun Deal Meal.
And den after ur meal, proceed to the kids explorer and allow ur kids the max freedom to enjoy to the fullest! Oh, if you are going to the kids explorer, rmb to bring along socks for urself and ur kids. Den you get to ride in the mini ferry wheel for free too! Everything just under $20!!! Either 15 or 18 lah. For member and non member. (NTUC member)
MUST CHECK IT OUT!!!
So, being parent for a year. Learnt alot. Sacrificed alot. Gain alot too.
Like parenthood is a whole new meaning in life. Whole new feel. Marriage without kids is not considered as COMPLETE. But with too many also a headache. lol.
Anyway, no regrets.
Just that, dun rush into it. Enjoy ur singlehood to the max. Enjoy the courtship days.
BYe.
.Friday, April 3, 2009 Y
Happy 1st Birthday,
Our Precious Son!
Will be back soon =D
.Wednesday, April 1, 2009 Y
Brought Jayr for haircut. A very tedious moment as in we had to coax him and made him stay still. phew~ Luckily the hairdresser was pro enough when comes to kids. Haa! The saloon is for kids only lah. lol. Located at suntec city. So like they will let him watch cartoons, give him candies and toys. Anyway, Jayr looks much better now. Neat and nice :)
I've bought him a polo tee, shirt and jeans from Mothercare. Freaky poor now, i swear. I saved and saved for my men's presents. I dared not eat, dared not spend a single cent, just to make sure im able to get them something on their bday. It doesnt matter if its not something high end, at least i am able to make their day, thats all worthwhile :) At least my effort is there.
3 more days and my darling Jayr will be 1 yr old!
Hmm... Will be bringing him out for some fun. He will be wearing the new clothes i've bought for him. Hubby will be bringing us for the SG flyer. hohoho! Hubby will be getting him gold bracelet or toys. Depends lah. Now gold not cheap lor. 300+ for that tiny thing. And so hopefully, Jayr's bday will be a fruitful one :) Isnt this better den holding chalet or whatever? At least the money we spent, we'll get to enjoy and all. Rather den wasting the money for other's privilege.
That day while boarding the train, an idiotic man came rushing and pushing from behind and den ended up hubby and Jayr able to board the train and im left all alone outside!!! Ya ya, right on the yellow line. Nabeh. So Hubby gestured and meant next station. So the next train finally arrived, i dared not sit. I stood right at the doorway and looked panickly out of the glass panel. So both of them alighted at the next stop and waited for my train to arrive and den board again. Haa. Finally we reunited. lol. This short moment made me realised something.....
I was like a total lost freak when im left all alone. Why? I felt so left out and so no-confidence. Like i cant face the outside world alone anymore. WHY? And ya, i was about to cry. Fucking embarrass right? Dunno la. Something is wrong with me. Maybe im kept in cage for too long. Maybe i am keeping myself away for too long. I need to socialise more, perhaps?
One last thing.
Maybe most of you have misunderstood something.
Or maybe i was too blunt den.
Whatever. I think i just need to voice out something and thats it.
I have said i hate idiots whom asked too much and even trying very hard to intrude my privacy. I have said i hope these idiots can just read and shut up. Ya. I was referring to those idiots, but not all of you. *roll eyes*
Like its ok if you asked me why im feeling this way? What happened?
But its NOT OK when you asked me bt my hubby's earning, my allowance, my savings, our loan amount, or anything personal bt my husband. Like my hubby said, is it that you are more interested in my man den ur own man?!
Stupid right?!!! Dumb right?!!! What has it got to do with you?!
You wanna be my financial consultant or wanna donate ur salary to me?!!
I knew it when these idiots asked, they intended to gossip this with others. Whats the point to do this to someone who has got nothing to do with you? Wat can you derive when you trying to do this? sibeh knn lor! I dun need the whole world to know that i am suffering shits ok!
So tell me, do i have the rights to get angry over this idiots?
Or was i wrong?
Like there are copycats. But i've learnt to ignore.
There are hypocrites and i have totally washed them off my life.
There are insincere "friends" and i have dumped them before they dump me.
You know, if you choose to be an idiot like these, den dun blame me for telling you off like this lah!
As for the rest of you, i still adore everyone as much.
I love to chat with you.
I love to see ur regards.
I love to see that you still care.
I love to have you as my friend.
But maybe i will be more wiseful when comes to sharing all bits bt my life. I will tell to those i think i can be trusted. I know who they are. I know when i tell them everything, they will say out nothing. This is what you call true and sincere friends.
It was my mistake to trust everyone.
It was my mistake to tell everyone bt everything.
But from now on, i will choose my friends wisely.
You know who you are :)
Cuz whenever you asked, i will tell right? :p
p/s: and to those whom call urself as my good friend/ best friend, oh pls, think hard, do you really treated me sincerely? Or were you using me? Think! I do not wish to receive ur call or sms bt all sorts or quiries. Damn! Dunno go google lah! Everything must ask me meh! Last word- BYE!
Jacky's Wife