.Monday, January 26, 2009 Y
Guess everyone must be celebrating this day with their beloved families and friends. Happy New Year :)Me and Jayr? Wasted whole day by doing the same damn things. Hubby's working and im hiding. Lied to them that im bringing Jayr out, cuz i dun wan any of them to appear at the doorstep. To be honest, i really hate to gather with that side of ppl. Im saying the folks. Last night i cried :(Thinking of many things and many things that brought back memories. When i was little, my dad left me with my Nanny, and even cny reunion dinner i had it with my Nanny's family. It is a huge family and there's always full table of dishes. Like even a plate of vege alsso gotta be a huge plate kind. I couldn't remember what i had but all i know is i was very very happy on every year's that day. I felt like i have a home. When i was in upper primary, i started to join dad for reunion dinner, as he was already illed and couldn't work anymore, thus have all time for me. We, just the 2 of us always gotta join in with my other relatives. Thou it was with daddy, but i wasnt happy at all bcuz it wasnt my home and definitely felt awkard somehow. And that only lasted for few years...After my dad deceased, i didnt have reunion dinner. I devoted my time in work, as a full time waitress. Deceived myself that im happy by counting the amount of ang baos i received from members. Well, actually i hid at the stairways and cried my heart out. I missed daddy. I missed family, but where is it? I dun think i have any memory of having with "them". And yesterday i hid in the room again. I told hubby that i missed liang jia, but i dunno where is it... He said so what i have a family, but all doesnt care a shit bt me. Ya, i agreed. However, all i wish is that i have a wonderful family that all of you has. I miss home so badly. But i dunno which home im missing. You know what i mean? I dun have a home to miss!!! As i laid on bed, and thinking that everyone on earth must be having dinner with their families, and i, laying here and cried and noone knows my sorrow... I felt like im an orphan. I felt like i am so lonely. I am really lonesome.I dunno how should i react when i see "them" one day on the street. Like should i call them? Or should i just walk away... You know, he got a house already, meaning he is already married and i dunno bt it! See? what's more to think? I am nothing to them, i am TOTALLY outta their life. And den i am still here thinking bt them sometimes. Since thats the case, den i shall move on... Moving on without them in my mind anymore... can i do it? And usually today, they will be having gathering over at west side. I knew it, but what can i do... Other side, guessed "somebody" must be having a good time of backstabbing me when neither me nor hubby is around to testify. Why not? Since she get to see her beloved sisters, thus will seize the chance to attack me from the back la! She will never learn. Cuz, she just backstabbed us few weeks ago. Think i dunno? Well, play harder den... I will just hate you more. Tomorrow we are going to my dad's side. Im so happy can! I seldom have the chance to see them. And its good to mix around with more normal ppl. hur hur. At least they dun backstab or talk shit. And they're never selfish. Im more happy there den here, obviously. And i must eat all i can cuz i dunno when i will get to eat Per's cuisine again. Hai. The only way i will be happy is when somebody can be outta my life TOTALLY.
.Saturday, January 24, 2009 Y
Spent quite alot at NTUC. Well, that means we wont go hungry on CNY. lol. Finally all done. Im saying the spring cleaning. And all ang baos nicely prepared, (though how i wish i can keep all to myself.) Damn. I am still thinking what to wear on which day. Like, as if i really care. lol. Anyway, Hubby's birthday falls on the 2nd, unfortunately. No cake, no nothing. All close wat! Poor thing. And i am so poor that i couldn't even get him something lor. What a failure am i. hai... HOW?!I am so into that taiwan show im watching now... aw~ the male lead actor is so charming! How i wish he is mine! hohoho! (no lah. my Hubby still the BEST) *roll eyes* Bought Prima Deli's custard puffs. *pui!!!* not nice! Should stick to my durian puffs forever. Anyway, nothing much to blog. Getting more and more restless as Jayr grow bigger and bigger. argh.p/s: i do wish that the dream wasnt true:(
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Ahhhhhhhh!!! I think i need a maid. lol.Yesterday after my wonderful Mcgriddles breakfast and a short nap, we started our spring cleaning for the whole entire day:(Wa biang a! Didnt know in such a small room, got so much barangs lor. kekeke. Eventhough we did "spring cleaned" our room quite often, but den always ended up throwing alot of things, and still many things around! why? I dunno too. But yesterday indeed we threw away alot of bags, clothes and some other stuffs. Hubby said it will be very difficult to bring all over to new house, thus we decided to start anew with zero! Lets say not "zero", its little. Yes! Lets start anew with little. My heartache as i threw most of my expensive clothes. sob sob. Didnt do i notice that i used to splurge like a goddamn rich princess. Like 2 pieces costed bt $300. And i had plenty of them! Wooosh. If only i knew how to save... hai. And, most of my clothes are like low cut or bare back, or sexy kind. nabeh. i cant wear them anymore. cuz i often gotta bend low to carry Jayr or he would pull down my top. lol! Anyway, today still got a bit more to tidy. My dressing table and hubby's "study" desk. And den in the evening we have to go NTUC to get Jayr's milk powder to stock up otherwise new year no milk for Jayr. lol. My boy is learning to walk now. Fast right? hehe. Next month 10 months old already! How time flies... Thought i just gave birth to him???? hahaha. Now he can turn to hubby and say, "Daddy, neh neh..." den hubby will fix milk for him. So smart. When i shake my head, he will mimic. so cheeky. Ok. will be back soon. Jayr wake up liao!
.Wednesday, January 21, 2009 Y
Hey human, lets just admit that LOVE is just a fucking sticky matter ya.Like there isnt anywhere that you can do to make it perfect or maintain it that way you wanted it to be. Either your pms ruins it OR his unstable moody cells ruins it. Agree? Yes.When we sees an old couple strolling hand in hand, we would envy to bits and hoping that we will be like this too. But what takes to make it happened? And why cant every couple be the same? argh. I do hope that love is as simple as 1+1.....As time goes by, many many tiny bits of sweetness started to fade away. Those actions and words... Wrap his arm around ur waist, put his arm over ur shoulders, pat ur head, hug you tight when u're frightened, kiss you as and when, hold ur hand, stroke ur hair, whisper some sweet naughty words, etc. But if all this were gone because of marriage and kids, den i really would rather remain in "In a relationship" status. Nabeh. too late for me to say anything right. cb.However, in every or should i say is almost all relationship, same thing will happen towards the end. Like turned sour, love faded, unfaithfulness, etc. Turning sour is VERY common, i guessed. Like all those lovey dovey actions are gone, no romantic event, no passionate sex, no more sweet dreams to pursude. So whats there to cling onto? Nothing, but "used to". Because we too get used to many things that includes them, and when you didnt even notice they have already slowly became part of YOU. ( Like a lump growing in ur breast. hur hur hur. ) Its really a depressing scenerio when love turns sour. You know, you need not have to blame urself for that, or dun even push all blames to men. Its takes 2 hands to clap, and one's effort aint enough at all. However, in a relationship there is always one party that is more initiative, thus he/she will be the one at "losing" point. Well, what is there to argue about? In this world, in love, there is no fairness. I've been through all sorts of challenges and i've seen it through. I mean mostly, not all. I believe by the time i turn 50, my blog will be a Dr Love consultation room. hahaha. If only i still blog. lol. p/s: i blogged abt this because i feel so unloved. those actions were long gone but im still here hoping for its returns. Mayb i should give up hope, and stop these pain... mayb i should pin my hope on better things. Like my life, Jayr's future.......hai... love aint easy at all.
.Tuesday, January 20, 2009 Y
Oh. The long awaiting letter has finally arrived! But... I dun have the letter box key nah. What letter? The HLE. Just when we finally wanna purchase our nest, the previous HLE expired! Damn. Lottery also never so accurate! Anyway, made the effort to HDB and den resummit everything again. All days and nights i am longing for its arrival. And ta-dah! Its there! Right there in the metal box :) So im waiting for hubby's sis to come home with my previous letter. hur hur. I hope this time round the loan amount can be higher. That previous one happened to be quite low, as in suay suay the US crisis occured on that period of time, thus delayed our application. So, this time can be better right? Year 2009 is my year! hohoho!(DO NOT QUESTION ME BT MY LOAN AMOUNT OR ANY PERSONAL DETAILS. I BELIEVE YOU DO NOT LIKE OTHERS TO INTRUDE YOUR PRIVACY YA? SO SAME GOES TO ME! ALTHOUGH I MAY SEEM FRIENDLY AND FRANK TO YOU, BUT DOESNT MEAN I HAVE TO LET YOU KNOW EVERY LIL THING. THANK YOU.) This is the problem why i never logon to msn anymore. Even if i did, i appeared to be offline. You know, like i may appeared to be friendly or like you alot, but doesnt mean you can cross the line and dump whole lots of questions on me. Like you can still ask me certain questions but not abt my hubby's income, our loan amount, how much we paid for the nest or deposit, or any other personal topics la. And im not good at turning down my friends. After all you will only make me feel annoyed. Another thing is, once im online, i will have hell lots of messages. argh. I mean i love it! I seriously do! But not those who came nudging and den dump alot of personal questions on me. Like, "aye, you preggy den married ah?", "how much you paid for ur wedding?", "why no dinner?", "how much ur hubby earning, got give you how much?", "got sale leh, why ur hubby never bring u go shopping?", "why you have no money?", "Jayr naughty anot?, got cry alot mah?"................DUMB RIGHT?Does it have anything to do with you? No. What did you derive by stabbing on my wound? Nothing.Knowing all and what can you do bt it? NOTHING!You ppl are simply KPO! I know some meant well and some just wanna know all and den make it their tea time gossip. Fuck that! This is my blog and i came here to tell some stories bt me to my dear friends, but if you arent anybody who really cares, den pls, fuck off. I do hope that i can online and den have a nice chat with a few. However, many a times, it ended up making me feel irritated. Either they questions alot, or boast alot. I dun need and dun wanna know how good is your life alright. Share that with ur high class friends will do! *roll eyes*I only love simple ppl with simple life and simple mindset, going for simple things in life and contented by many simple ways:) Hai. Its really so difficult to have a real friend that never selfish, never show off, never leave me in lurch, never backstab me, never forget that she has a best friend which is ME. Mayb heaven should consider giving me a bff. hee. But still, give my son a good health, my hubby good wealth, and me a peaceful family lifestyle... Bff can wait. hohoho! Anyway, chinese new year next week. No anticipation at all. Mayb cuz im married so no ang baos to collect, instead, we must give, thus no excitement. lol. And, luckily that hubby gotta work on the 1st, so i DUN have to go to his side. wahahahaha! no need to see hideous ppl, and that is my best CNY ang bao! But i am so looking forward to go to my side lor! Good home cooked food! aw~ I have been missing that for a year already. hur hur. Per's family food is still the best lah. lol. Dun let the Quek's see this. kekeke. (like as if i care) Anyway, 3 more months of shits. And i swear i (& Jayr) will never wanna step in here anymore!!! NEVER! Give me $1 million i also DUN WAN!!! Can you see or feel how much i hate this?
.Sunday, January 18, 2009 Y
(Sorry for the disorganised formation. hehehe.)...
Hubby's Santa Cruz. Chio right? Casual and man.
My Malinja. Or what other name la... lol.
Jayr's favourite snack that he would always eat non stop and demand for more.
The lil boss's demanding look. .
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Woosh! So full and tummy bloated like a 5 months preggy. hehehe. These few days my dear man brought me around for good food, and thus making me suspecting that i am getting fatter and fatter. wth. No food also complain, got good food also complain. Woman! lolx.
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Friday, we went Compass Point early in the morning for hubby's dental appointment. A fast one though, cuz he was the first. And den my man suggested that to go VivoCity since we will be taking the NE line. Walked around and hunt for a pair of chio shoes for hubby, but to no avail. Walau, sales sometimes can be deceiving. Like they marked up the price and den put a signage and says "Up to 80%!!!". BULLSHIT. *roll eyes*
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Den looked at the time and felt that our tummies were growling, so we headed to Dian Xiao Er for our lunchie. Cuz my man loves the Dan Gui Duck. *roll eyes*
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Went Marina Sq in the evening time. Passed by Crocs, and haha, splurged a total damaged of ard $148. hohoho! I got the one i dread to have and hubby got the pair that i nagged him to get instead of some other kuku shoes where he would only wear for few times. Above are the pictures. *beam!* I am looking for the right blings for my Crocs, still looking... hmm.
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Yesterday went Bugis and offer prayer. Pray that Jayr gets healthy and gain back those weights asap. hehe. Dropped by and chit chatted with Amelia for a short while. And haha, thanks her for those freebies. kekeke. Dear man bought me clothes again. weee!
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Actually we just came back from tamp mall. Didnt walk much cuz like i've said, it is a huge mistake to go there during weekend. Had our dinner at my favourite Din Tai Fung. hoho! Hubby scared i have not enough, and he ordered lots of xiao long bao and dumpling. That explains my fatty tummy.
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I cant wait any longer. I am like counting to the days when im finally free from this shithole. argh. Only like 3 more months but it seems like 3 more yrs. ooooh. I wanna move now!
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Hubby is the kiasu one. Bought alot of materials regarding feng shui, and now everyday studying every details. salute. lol.
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ok. better stop here cuz i am like going no where. lol.
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will be back soon with normal postings. and i promise i will do it more frequently.
.Wednesday, January 14, 2009 Y
Haiya. I know i have been neglecting this blog :(But seriously, i have no interesting topic to blog. Whatever i have to say, to announce, i have already done so. Anyway, i am so crazy over taiwan dramas now. WAT HAPPENED TO ME! I used to loathe taiwan shows ALOT, but now i am like crazily searching for show after show. Hmm, mayb bcuz english dramas always have this lagging problem. I dunno. And chinese shows has this ability to make me laugh and cry, which indeed is what i needed to release my stress. Most of the time i find their quotes meaningful and somehow or rather taught me a lesson of life. Well, am watching ( Er Zhuo Ju Zhi Wen ). Ya lah, i know im slow la. Season 2 is already an outdated thing and im still at the beginning of season 1. wth. Anyway, i must say its a VERY nice one. Thats why so popular and hot lah. Previously watched (Devil Beside You) and (Why Why Love). Oh, now i do hope that there are more production coming up soon! Many times when i see somebody foolishly fallen in love with a bastard, and no matter how hard im trying to explain some sense into them, they just wouldn't listen cuz they are too blinded by love. And that reminds me of ME in the past. Well, despite all the heartaches, hurts and sacrifices, in the end i got myself in a very blissful and warm lil family. I have no regret. Really. They say, after raining and storm eventually they will be rainbow. I truely believe this finally, for i used to think that this was just another piece of bullshit. But NO, this is true. After every bad things (regardless the length of time), eventually i will get my reward. Luckily i was determined enough, strong enough, and luckily i have the amazing strong endurance level that brought me here today. Luckily i didnt give up....... :)Like my dear man said, we are going to build our own sweet lil family, from little bit we have, slowly and steadily, we will reach the destination together. He said he wanna start everything anew with me. Lets put the past far behind. Lets embrace the future laughters and joy. Ya. I want! I want to start everything anew. I have been waiting for this day. A new environment, a new life. A whole new miracle awaiting for us :)
.Monday, January 12, 2009 Y
I AM LONGING FOR THE ARRIVAL OF APRIL!!!And its the time im freed from this nut house, babies! hohoho!Well, we didnt get the one we "loved" bcuz it is a total disappointment when we stepped in during Sunday afternoon. Like the feelings are different between night and day. That night was a huge mistake. lol. Luckily we didnt buy that on impulse. And so, in the end we got our second choice. Wahahaha! Windy, bright, spacious, high floor, corner, quiet, VERY convenient, and most importantly- IMMEDIATE SUBMISSION. hohoho! Heaven is on my side this time round. So meanwhile let the turtle HDB to do their job. You know lah, when comes to take money from us, government will be very efficient, but when we need something from them, they will behave like a kuku bird. So as for now, we are like sourcing for cheaper and better furnitures and stuffs. Oh ya, if you can intro me a good and cheaper interior designer/contractor, that would be perfect! Do let me know :) Thanks.Like every now and then i would imagine my new house, my daily routine, my new lifestyle....... hehehhehehehe... *poke bubble*p/s: Jayr can drink from straw!p/p/s: I hope that bloody PSP disappear!
.Saturday, January 10, 2009 Y
*Drum rolling*........PA-DAH!!! BOO!The Best Picture Of Queky's Collection!!!
Hohoho! Words cant describe how much i love this picture, babies! Look at my dear man's natural happy smile, and my xin fu xiao nu ren's smile, can you feel the love? oh yes. Love is in the air. kekeke. Im gonna frame it up, seriously. I mean it! I will do it asap :p..Ok. Below are some random ones we took on train. lol. I have more actually, but i uploaded few only. To you, all might look the same boring, but to ME, all looks different but has the same feel :)
And, ahem, pardon me for my vain-ness. lol.I couldn't help it at all, when i felt that i was so pretty. HAHA!
OK. you may puke now :(
Ya la ya la. The black ends are so obvious and long lah. For you info, i have ALREADY coloured my hair this morning :) *bleah*.
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Ok. These will be some random ones of 3 of us. Daddy, mummy and baby :)
Aw~~~ so sweet. i know you are thinking or saying this now. lol!!!.
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Pictures of my baby boy>>> (i love this is what u are interested in)
Ok. so after all the photos and nonsenses, are you ppl thirsty??? .
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Short briefing- Tomorrow will be the last house viewing. We will decide which to get. If that love nest refuse to drop the COV, den ask them go fuck themselves. hur hur hur.
- I have coloured my hair red, deep warm red. I love it! Thanks hubby for the encouragement as in like i thought of red but didnt have the courage cuz i always have this mindset that red doesnt suit darker skin tone ppl. NO! Different tones of red suits different ppl. Get it? OK. Red is the trend now. hohoho! i can see those copycats are going to do the same thing too! whatever. as if they will look nice too. hahahaha!
- Went to bugis. Dropped by and visit Amelia. Had a short chat and i really miss this woman nah! We have so much to talk, so much to gossip but den so less time :( Anyway, i'll welcome her to my new house soon!
Well, that about it today. Chao!
.Friday, January 9, 2009 Y
Hi all earthlings :) This bloggy is not dead, yet. hohoho!Ok. First, im not pregnant. Blame this bloody "auntie" for her late visitation. Like almost 2 weeks!!! And, i had all the symptoms like, vomiting, cramping, breast discomfort, dizzy, headache, heartburn, etc. And all day long im feeling weak. So in the end Hubby dragged me to pharmacy and we got the test kit. Tested and resulted negative. I was like quite disappointed initially, but before that i was quite depressed as in like i dun think its the right time to have a 2nd baby, but den, when it came out as negative, i was upset that we never have one more! lol. contradicting right. Well, anyway, thanks all for the concerns and hahahaha, some even congratulated me!!! lol. sorry ah. oh ya, Isabella, i will contact you when i really need it ok. hee. sorry and thanks.I know i have been neglecting this bloggy and never reply to all the messages and comments. Sorry. Like i was damn tired every night when i reached home. Never a day i could lie flat and rest. argh. House viewing went on for the whole week. 5 units per night. Well, some are very impressive and most are like once stepped in, my eyes would start to roll again and again. lol. But luckily i have got a very reliable agent. Thanks him alot. So we have shortlisted 5 units among all, and decided to view again on Sunday. And this time we gotta set our mind on one. If never, we will have to wait, wait for the miracle again. of cuz not! Apparently we couldn't wait any longer lor! Actually, both Hubby and I have set our eyes and hearts on one pretty love nest. However, the location is somehow inconvenience for hubby as in some day in the week he has to work morning shift, thus, catching up with the first bus or first LRT might be the problem. SO, its either we will get that OR, we will have to take another one lor. *cross fingers* even the agent also said my hubby always give in to me, despite knowing that the location is not right for him. hehehe.The reason why we love that love nest is because, it is pretty renovated. Very modern and up to our taste. Many built-in furniture and facilities, thus allowing us to save quite alot. Total nett price is about the same as others, which appeared to be just a plain simple HDB flat. This interior makes me feel like im in a condo. hee. SO why not?! Hubby said lets buy this, think no more. But den the one whom suffer is him not me! he has to walk 15-20 mins to the bus stop. what if it rains? i know he loves me and want me to live in the one i loves. Moreover this is a major issue, not a few bucks thingy. hehehe.Went tamp mall for our dinner just now. And jalan around. Passed by century square and there got this "famous" fortune teller. Dunno why, but we were like attracted to it. So we went for it. haa. Hubby first, of cuz. He said quite alot but i only want to name one here. hee. He said i am his yi sheng zhong jui ai de nu ren ( the woman he loves most in his live). wahahahahahaha! damn shiok upon hearing this. hehe. Although that both of us often have arguements or some different point of view, but we know how to respect and compromise. woosh! My turn, ok this i can say more la. He said i am very frank and direct, and that it would be better if i learn to be more secretive and tell some white lies. hur hur! if you wan me to shut up and say nothing, i will feel super uneasy. I hate ppl to lie and den i must learn to lie??? And if you are ugly, dun expect me to say u are gorgeous!!! lol. Next, he said i have the sign of migration. HOHOHO! HOLY LOLLIPOP! this is my dream! So heaven is challenging me now and den giving me that as a reward?! good good goody! i dun mind to suffer now man! Anyway, this isnt the first time a fortune teller told me this. hehehe. Next, looking at my palm, he said only 10 out of 1000 got this "fish" on the palm, be it man or woman, and this means you wang your spouse. lol. and he congratulate us! Next, i have a very strong sixth sense and gut feel that one can beat. So in order to success i must trust my feel. But on the other hand, i am very logical, thus causing this huge contradict here which is an obstraction in my success. i dunno la. A housewife need to be how success? lol. No wonder many ppl turned to me for advice. lol. okok. i know this is getting bored. But i have one last thing to mention ok???He said, i may not die soon nor young, but if i die, it will be a sudden death. Upon hearing this, my heart sank. I turned to hubby and i see tears welled up in his eyes. I dunno why, although he said its not soon. A sudden death is scary enough though. Mayb this is a good way too. Like i suffer lesser den usual death? right? He said sudden death can be my heart or accident. So even if how hard i try to avoid accident, i will also die from heart attack. right? Death is inevitable. Im not scared at all. But i was feeling she be de. I cant bear to leave hubby, Jayr and my future kids. hai. Hubby told me he felt sad when he heard that. This makes me more she bu de lor! You know, treasure the things that you know you will miss and regret. Live is so vulnerable. So short. And this gonna be the truth, the lil cottage and strawberry farm that i've promised... In other land.The reason to my difficult labour- i have no fate with children. - I am not crazy over kids. (absolutely untrue! i am totally crazy and almost insane over Jayr.)
- My kids will be studying aboard. (if this is for their own good, den i shan't interrupt.)
- I died too sudden and they cant make it for my funeral. (i will rather die again in other land!!!)
- We will be living apart. (They will have their own family one day.)
- I will die early.
So he named me 5 and told me only one might be right. cb. i hope no2 will be the right one den. I am feeling totally low moral now. argh. so i can foresee what my next labour will be like.
well, all this just believe 50% will do lah. whichever human doesn't die? at least mine is sudden kind and less sufferings right? hur hur hur. self- comfort.
anyway, i can see that hubby and i are like suddenly so close and lovely. hee.
p/s: photos uploaded on FB :)
p/p/s: he said hubby is very romantic and i am hopelessly romantic!!! hohoho!
.Monday, January 5, 2009 Y
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.Friday, January 2, 2009 Y
The superb good daddy went out as early as 8am to NTUC for errand running. Cuz i told him that we have to buy Jayr milk powder already, and he kept postponing it untill, ta-dah, those pathetic bits cant last till tonight! So the responsible man went out to get the milk powder lor. hee. He called me from there and told me that Pampers are having promotion again. Like 2 packs for $45.++(usual $69), and he thought that its worth it, so was asking me whether Jayr suitable for that. Of cuz la! Our Jayr boy has got golden butt, thus he can only use expensive diapers. lol. *roll eyes* Hey! before u start ur nasty comment, u gotta make this clear alright! Its not that we are splurging unnessecery, it is the fact that Jayr's butt is sensitive to many other brands' diapers. So its either Mamy Poko or Pampers stages/baby dry. As for the milk formula, ya, it was my idea to give Jayr the most expensive one and the best one. Why? Hello, dun you not know that everything goes in really does affect the health, growth, mental functioning, nutrition level. How can i possibly give my son anything that i think have to be within my barget?! That diapers thing is inevitable, but this milk powder thing is the parent's choice. I dunno how my mum treated me or given me, but i know i have to give Jayr the best. Its really ok for me to starve. Such a rotten life like mine doesnt really bother to have better things. But Jayr is a whole new live that needs my nurture and love. Understand now? :)You gotta start ur kids with good health, then it will lead to good life. Its a shit day, if you not know. If you are my loyal readers, hahahaha, den you shld know what i mean. :(Such a long day and im starting to miss my dear man. argh. 5 more hours to see him! wth. You know, like during christmas and new year eve, everyone was out there celebrating and having the best time of their lives, whilst me staying at home looking after baby and looking haggard and unpretty. At that moment, i was hoping so dearly that i could get out and join everyone out there. I wanna sing, i wanna dance, i wanna drink, i wanna laugh with many friends. I can see everyone have done a year 2009 resolution. I wanted too, but in the end i couldnt think of anything to put in the list...All i want is lesser sufferings, more happiness.But it seems so impossible... p/s: house viewing on Monday!!! woohoo! our home. im so excited!!!
.Thursday, January 1, 2009 Y
Forget bt last night's post. I wasn't in my right mind to do that. So well, im gonna delete it once im done with this :)This morning, Hubby went down to Mac and bought my favourite breakfast- McGriddles, before he headed for work. yummilicious baby! I am starting to think that year 2009 is a good year for me. hohoho! Anyway, greedy Jayr just finished his milk den, and upon seeing me eating my yummy breakfast, he quickly crawled to me and kept screaming. lol. So excited to see food. Den he ate half of my hushbrown and some of the pancake. (its not bread, its pancake!) 2 days back, Hubby brought us out after he came home from his morning shift. We shopped around and den he urged me to go for a haircut, and i did. Went to Storm and like have to wait for 2 hrs! So within that 2 hrs, we went for shopping! He bought me 2 tops and 2 bottoms!!! oh man! i love it! i love it! i love it!!! who say Ines has got nothing better to wear now? hohoho! Dun tell you where and what. Cuz u know, there are fulltime copycats loitering about my blog. *middle fingers* And this morning hubby told me that he will bring me for another shopping spree on his coming off day. OH HOLY LOLLIPOP!!! See??? I've told you year 2009 is my year! wahahaha.But, shan't happy too early cuz the zodiac signs forecast for 2009 is NOT GOOD. Especially for relationship. nabeh. If we pass through this, den everything will be alright. hai. And the bomb is THIRD PARTY! fuck that. i will surely never forgive if it really happen. Do u hear me?!!! Anyway, i almost forgotten bt new year thing. Like last night when i was about to sleep, hubby asked me, "you really tired ah? dun wan to count down with me meh?" oh ya! shit. i really have no idea that last night was the end of 2008! hohoho. anyway, i have no idea bt many occasions happening out there. lol. So in the end i forced myself to stay awake and watched dvd with hubby. The Mist. Its a thriller movie and i think u shld watch too. Quite scary and abit lame la. lol. So...Happy New Year!!!
It wasn't as shocking when i found out that the old slut Maddona was a porn star back den during her heydays. oooh. she looked like the now Gwen Stefanie. (or mayb i shld say Gwen immitate her) Well, i dun find her a turn on, and i dun see why that young chap she's hooking up with now, sees in her. Moreover she is already 50+!!! Well, whichever starlet didnt fuck her way to fame ya? It happens in local showbizz industry and let along the sex-hunger Hollywood. And this is in a package for fame. No matter how pretty you are or how talented, the only way to climb up there is to go down on the authorities' cock. You cant deny. I even suspect that Fann and Zoe did the same thing. hohoho.And if you observe and see which newbie stand the chance the appear on tv frequently, there is high possibility she have done that. ohoh.And it happens on male celebs too. Some are more den willing to take up a cock up in his ass just for the sake of fame and money. Or, fuck those old haggard chics. haha. More sad for male ones right?Whatever it is, this world is still cruel.
Hubby's Santa Cruz. Chio right? Casual and man.
My Malinja. Or what other name la... lol.
Jayr's favourite snack that he would always eat non stop and demand for more.
The lil boss's demanding look. 
Hohoho! Words cant describe how much i love this picture, babies! Look at my dear man's natural happy smile, and my xin fu xiao nu ren's smile, can you feel the love? oh yes. Love is in the air. kekeke. Im gonna frame it up, seriously. I mean it! I will do it asap :p
Aw~~~ so sweet. i know you are thinking or saying this now. lol!!!
Jacky's Wife