*yawn* Enough posese for all aunties and uncles!!! im going to orr orr now... tata!

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And finally the piglet went to his wonderland...........

Shhhhhhhhhhhh............................

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Today is a shit day again. Hubby didnt tell me that somebody isnt working today. Jayr is down with slight fever. And den i got stuck here like this! Have to stuck untill midnight! I am not going to drink water. I am not going to eat. Cuz i am not going to toilet!!! ccb.

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im so hungry now. i wan pasta. arrrrggggh.

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menses still haven come. y? it is already the beginning of Dec. wtf. i dun wan baby now. i cant! i wan to enjoy pregnancy. I dun wan to suffer the same shit all over again. not here. not here not here!!! i need to give Jayr the space he needs first. I need to provide for Jayr first. oh god! y always play this trick on me? y cant u just spare me and let me be? y must u always create something so challenging for me again and again? pls stop! wait till i moved outta here can?
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i am thinking of moving out even before i got my house. i cant wait anymore. no more. if i really got preggy, i wanna leave. i dun wan to starve when i have a live in me. i asked hubby whether will he leave with us or not. To my amaze, he said yes. But who knows, the last min tantrum and dramas. oh whatever. all i care abt is i need to get our butts outta here asap. i need to.

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Heaven, if u wan me to suffer more shits from u, den could u pls at least grant me this wish? help me get outta here forever.