.Sunday, December 21, 2008 Y
Exhausted. Im so so so tired. Hai.Jayr finally dozed off and finally i can rest. My back aches alot! And its hell torturing. Mayb dued to the 3 shots of epidural i had during labour. And maybe plus i have to carry Jayr more often everyday. But what can i say? I have to oblige all. I am so worry sick now. I felt so helpless and i dunno what else can i do to make this go away asap. The fever is like on and off and den to very high. And although fever relief can relief it for awhile but den its the virus that causes his body tempreture to raise so high. Other thing is, i am still observing him after every take of Isomil. If this is not suitable for him den he have to depend solely on glucose fluid ONLY. its like as good as putting him on drip right?! My heart aches. My heart aches. MY HEART IS ACHING!!!Thanks god for letting me have such a wonderful husband by my side when i needed him the most. He helps to look after Jayr and also coax him when he was throwing tantrum. He did most of the chores for me as i have to pay more attention on Jayr. Cooked for me and bring me drinks. Hanged the laundry and boiled water. Today is some kind of festival. I dunno wats it call. Hubby made the effort to cook some rice glutinious balls and he said we must have it together, den will tuan tuan yuan yuan. haha. So sweet. I mean Hubby not the balls. lol. Feel so sorry and guilty for flaring at hubby this whole day. SORRY:(I was feeling so mixed up, helpless, tired, sleepy, pain, pek cek, etc. So sorry ok. I know u are the best. And i know u kept quiet cuz you know im tired thats y i flared. Thanks and sorry. You know i love you the most :) Hubby also went to rent alot of movies cuz we cant go out at all as Jayr is under "quarantine". Well, so these few days programme will be Jayr and movies!oh pls. virus faster go away!
Jacky's Wife