p/s: 90210 is not nice at all! wasted my few mins. hur hur.
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Yesterday Hubby and I caught the movie Constantine on Movie6.net. Nice but a lil lame. Heard channel 5 is airing it soon... or have it shown already? i dunno. go check it out den...The show is abt God, demons, slayer, Holy spirits, Hell and Heaven. God has a Son. Demon has one too. lame. And why is that demons are afraid of the chants in Bible? whenever we see such thing happening in the screen, hubby will go like this, "neh!!! see... calling for the soilders and army and light and power.... got help meh?" i dunno. They think we buddism or taoism are being ridiculous for doing the ritual or our chanting. But what about them? calling for soilders, army, father, son, light, can really help to chase away these ghost? its ghost and pls accept the fact that they are ghost, not Holy spirits. cuz i dun find them holy, instead they are scary and harmful. i dun mean to be biased on religions. sorry if i offended some. oops! Well, just that many a times, when they ended up so helplessly and no way to chase away those things, they will turn to the chinese ones. funny. dun believe den still seek help from them? lol. and den when chinese ones managed to do so, they didnt even appreciate but still choose to turn their backs on us. whatever.... my uncle is a taoism priest. so i know. even ang mohs came to him. see? and my uncle said, those ang mohs' countries are those with lotsa ghosts. and very difficult to chase them away cuz when they were alive, they didnt practice such thing in life, and also got communication problem. hahaha. funny. ok. enough of spooky story. cuz the scary month is gone. lol.
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I am running flu and having fever now :( But i am so helpless cuz i still have to look after Jayr on my own. see the bad points bt stay-at-home-mum? I cant rest when im sick, whereas ppl who are working can take MC. I cant apply for leave to relax, whereas working ppl can do so and go overseas. I cant knock off from work, cuz my working schedule is 24/7, not 8-5 kind. I cant lodge a complain at MOM when im unhappy, cuz i just cant complain! I have no fix income, no commission, no incentives, no bonus, no CPF contribution, no best staff award, blablabla.... My kind of job is to work-untill-the-day-u-die, that kind. hai... really can die. my day faster come, so i'll suffer lesser. But first of all, wait till Jayr is over 30, married, stable career, stable family, and i become an ah ma. lol. and if Hubby is still alive when im dying, i will make sure he has a place to stay and enough money to spare untill they day he comes to meet me somewhere, sometime... hai. why am i talking like a lau kok kok ah ma... well, when u are finally a parent, u will know why... though i am still young, but i cannot afford to waste any of my time and money. its ok that i cant club, drink, shop, chiong, fling, as long as Jayr got all the best things that i can afford and as long as he is healthy, have the right educational environment, i am contented already. :)
At times i do wonder, why ppl with kids, still loves to go chiong-ing and dump the money there but not come back home and see their kids' growing process. u know, this is really very important, and once u missed it, u can never find it back. and i am glad and proud that i am with Jayr all this while, and never did i leave him for a day. If u're gonna ask me anything bt him, i can just simply ans all with no sweat! :)
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My birthday is coming in a week time. a mixed feeling in me that somehow or rather makes me irk.
All these are some randoms thoughts la. The last one is a classic case if they really would celebrate for me. hai. and i know this aint gonna happen in a billion years!!! whatever. i dun owe them, they dun owe me. we are done with each other! but i am feeling sad somehow? normal right? haiiiii.... its a bad thing for me to turn my back on them actually. But, as a mum she never treat me the right way. well, i shouldn't define what is right and what is wrong, cuz every parents has got their own way. However, this is a totally different case here. She chosed to attack me from my back and bite off my tail just like that, if i wasn't smart and fast enough, i might now left with pathetic breakage of bones, scattering around amk... She did this to me and thus, doesn't deserve any sweet dessert from me. She thinks she's too smart for me, but didn't she realise that i have long ago inhereit her smart brain cells plus my dad's kindness blood flowing in me! oh oh oh~ see who has got the last laugh now? :D
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I have nothing to wear on my birthday. I have nothing to wear for my cousin's wedding. I have nothing to wear!!!!!!! nabeh.
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My 21st Birthday wishlist:
(must have 21 right? heeee)
The best of all is No.20. cuz whatever i want i can just wish for it and den i will have it!!!! tadah~! smart ass :p
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Lets all count with me------
7 more days! :D
Jacky's Wife
