.Friday, August 15, 2008 Y
A rather happening day.As in we spring-cleaned the whole room, dumped away all those unwanted stuffs (mainly those used babies items given by others, and its alot!) and also wiped the attire place including furniture and windows. Dunno why but suddenly we are so ON. I wanted to do it long ago but i cant handle alone cuz of my wound. So like finally hubby is so ON den better seize the chance lor. This morning we brought Jayr for his jab. Same, no much fuss. But today he was slightly feverish. So i gave him the liquid panadol. After awhile he sweat and den fever subsided. mmm. Today he seems so xin ku like that. I see liao also heart pain. Although he is still active and playful but very "yang oor" like that. And he cried so terribly. Only Hubby can cool him down. He is so attached to daddy lor! hmp! this makes me die die want a girl... lol. We went amk to clean the house. Damn tired. After which we went to hub for the sake of air-con. haa. and den u know wat? i saw her again. My mum. But she din see me for sure. whatever... Disowned me better still. At least i feel less guilty. i mean not that i am guilty for anything. But as a daughter (cuz she gave birth to me), i still somehow dun feel very good to shoo her off u see. whatever la. ppl always told me that i finally done the right thing by shooing them off, however i always find it so hard to tell myself that "its ok... u r right". hai... i hope that next life we wont see each other again and not owe each other anymore. My life is so dramatic. And many of those, from all walks of life, whom have made themselves a history in my life, i somehow or rather would thanks them for these dramas... y cuz if not for them, i wont know how to continue with those challenging obstacles ahead. Cuz now, i am so experienced and so familiar with human's games. And thanks them for making a strong, brave and capable Ines today. I know Daddy will be so proud of me. I know he loves me still. I know he is always there for me. I know he is finally relief that those baddies are gone for good. I know....
Jacky's Wife