We went to amk today to deal with something. Its a raining day but luckily we brought along foldable umbrellas. After finished those chores, we decided to go amk central for makan and amk hub to shop around. Along the way I saw someone. My mother. Everything happened so sudden and quickly that i have no time to think of how to react. I was like carrying Jayr, a heavy bag and a heavy paperbag. And my hair was like flying all over my face and den when i managed to look up, i realised someone familiar had just walked pass me. And i dunno whether or not did she see me, but for sure is, we were only a metre away, i think. I turned back and see again, but she looked down and continued to walk striaght without looking back. I wanna call her, but i dunno will she acknowledge me or simply just ignore. Like i said, everything happened too sudden and too fast that my mind couldn't think of anything to react. When i realised that it was my mum whom walked pass me, she was already a long distance away..... She lost weight. This seems bad. But, no, i dun think so cuz she wore gold and jewellry which she didnt in the past. and seems like someone is getting loaded. She was the kind whom seldom dress up or wear any accessories, but now, she is totally different. So if one day someone was to tell me that they miss me so much and feel so miserable to lose me, i will fuck that person off! Cuz its totally bullshit~! Life seems pretty good for them ya... took my money and den spent it on themselves instead of me and baby. whatever~!!!!Haa. Heaven is soooo good to them. Y? Is it bcuz i prayed too hard for them?
UNFAIR~!!!!!!!!!
im feeling so low now.
i dunno y must i deserved these.
and y r they so happy now and im so sad here.
y im not part of them as well?
y must heaven took away my only daddy and left me nothing!
Jacky's Wife