.Friday, April 18, 2008 Y
I have too many problems to deal with. To hack care and to wash off my mind. People who has been ignoring me, im sorry, u are getting urself outta my list real soon.On the day of discharging from hospital, i told Hubby to sms my brother to let them know that i have delivered and was going home already. The reply has got nothing to do with me, never care how was i. Wat a family. All he asked abt was baby's weight and name. Thats all. How pathetic i am. I was waiting for thier call. But to no avail. The reason i never tell them once baby's out is bcuz i dun wan them to come hospital and argue with me bt the house or over money issue. wat the fuck. they can just hack care everything just to gain wat they wan, u see.My aunt told me to call my mum and tell her personally. She said mayb she's purposely waiting for me to tell her. I refused. I mean y shld i when it is so obvious that they dun care a teeny weeny shit bt me at all. And y the hell must i call somebody and sort of begging them to come and pity me?! If she really treat me as a daughter or really like wat she pretends, she care, she whld have call me immediately or rush down to see me. Not there pretending dunno and wait for the moment to attack me back. Cuz i know one day she will say she dunno anything cuz i never told her! ---------------------------------------------My life's a piece of pathetic shit now. Im not happy here. but there is nowhere else i can go to wipe my tears off. there is noone else whom i can turn to. noone else to hug me and kiss away my pain. noone else.....----------------------------------------------I told my ah ma that i miss my daddy. She said he is a man, so wats if hes still around. My answer is, "with daddy around, at least he wont allow anyone to bully me. wont allow me to suffer all these misery...."
Jacky's Wife