Hi dear all... we are back home finally... Hospital stay was sickening unless its A ward... lol. I have many many pics of Jayr, but hubby haven upload to com yet, so have to wait ya. Jayr is now sleeping soundly, therefore i have the time to blog. and i just woke up from nap too. hee...
On 2nd of April, i went for my last routine check up at kkh. Doctor said baby overdued already therefore needless to wait and ask me to proceed to delivery suite for induction. Waited at normal ward till bt 7pm den sent me down to delivery suite cuz no suite available! Doc came and broke my water bag at around 10pm. Induction drip started only at 10.30pm. From afternoon 3pm till 10.30pm, doc said my cervix only dilated 3cm... so many hours still 3cm... den waited and waited and done the epidural too... not that scary la. after the epidural, i felt so numb and itchy lor. cuz side effect ma. untill bt 4+am, came a senior doc, and i know something wasnt right already. He told me that my cervix is dilating too slow and baby's heartbeat is on risk. Best advice is to go for op immediately. im left with no choice, so i said ok.
The worst terror in my life. The worst pain i have ever felt. The one time i screamed out so loudly. Cuz the dosage given to me wasnt strong enough to numb me totally. after my scream, den they started to double everything. scary right? i dare not give birth again.
The after math is no better as well. cant get out from bed without feeling huge pain and cant lay down painlessly as well. everynight would be a nightmare for me. cuz noone will be by my side. i felt so helpless and cried. think im getting post natal blues.... i find myself feeling very low and depressed.
Hubby put in so much effort. he fed baby. he carried baby. coax baby to sleep. now whenever jayr hear his voice, jayr will respond with a smile or noise. I tried breastfeeding too. jayr is so greedy lo. sucks so eagerly and forcefully. pain leh. but ok la, bearable la. my breast starts to leak already. haha. so swollen too.
now all i wanted to do is BATH!!! but cannot... cant wet my wound for 3 days. i want to wash my hair, but hubby say no too. how can?! and this weather is getting warmer and warmer. the hot hot season is back!
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