.Monday, March 31, 2008 Y

Im feeling sad. Terribly upset. I wanna screw that big fuck whore's asshole with a parang! Fuck my life and i'll fuck yours! and i swear im going to fuck a big hole outta ur life! arggh!!!
Come and buddy with my pretty ass la!
This is Britney now. Everyone will go insane once their life got screwed up badly. And hers must be miserable enough. Can tell from the way she dressed. They are driving me mad too. So one day if you sees me in this state, it aint surprise. well, at least i will wear a more appropriate bottoms. or shld i say i will never even buy that in the first place. Rest assure that i hate wearing stockings too. So that, uh-uh...

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I didnt go hospital today for the induction. Reason why, is bcuz that stupid person told me that be prepared that doc will send me home. Even if cervix dilates up to 3 cm they might send me home too! y? cuz i dun have appointment with them on today and i dun have serious symptoms like bleeding or water bag burst. and only if they are not busy and has enough room to take me in! WHAT THE FUCK?! This is what they have been practicing in KKH ya. God damn KKH!!!

My March baby supposingly, now becoming an April baby!!! Tell me what the fuck are they doing?! I told the person over the phone that i have reached my EDD and she said why i didnt ask the doc for induction den? I told her bcuz that fucking doc asked me to come back for appointment on April, instead of my due date! Hilarious part is, they are sending me for scanning only after my EDD, not beforehand. CHEE BYE!

Now everyday and every min i am so seriously worried bt baby's movement and heartbeat. So afraid of even going nearby to grab some food. MISERABLE~

I called many other hospital to checked. And all answered the same to me. Its too late to request for transfer. And too late to appoint any gynae. Im so helpless now. So now im left with stupid KKH to turn to, and apparently they arent doing any help. Now Hubby den realised and said never ever go back to KKH anymore... If they dare to ask for feedback, we wont hesistate to give them our essay-complaints...

.Sunday, March 30, 2008 Y

I have reached my due date, like finally. The major problem here is that babys not out yet. And that stupid "every-5-mins-pain" still haven come, u see. I called kkh this morning and told the person what im going through and asked whether can i opt for induce. She said if i dun wanna wait anymore den i can tell the doc. But on risk, if my cervix not dilated yet, and after putting me on drip and cervix still closed, den they will have to send me for c section.
Some says its alright if baby is going to stay in there for few more days. As long baby is still kicking fine and im still not in huge pain.
The fact is i am getting more and more worried if he's gonna stay in there for longer time, u see. Stillborn-can be the most cruel ending, u know. And dun you find something might go amissed or whatever that causes the dely? Im seriously going mad.
So tell me, should i or should i not opt for the drip tomo morning? Or should i just wait for dunno-what-might-happen? I would greatly appreciates calls from u peeps to tell me what to do. Should u not see me online. Do call me on my cellphone.
I tell you, KKH sucks to the max~! I will never wan to come back after my first kid. NEVER! They should send me for scanning this week. Not after my EDD!!! wth are they doing! Take a shot of my middle fingers and better still, close down la~!

.Saturday, March 29, 2008 Y

Just 2 more freaking days to go~! Baby will be out, hopefully. No more killer contraction pain to endure. (but somewhere else will pain like fuck, i know.) I really cant stand having this irregular pain anymore. I dun wanna go hospital again, cuz they will only do those stupid monitoring and den ask me go home. screw them lah! now i understand why ppl say KKH fucked up!!!! it really fucked the hell up!!!! guessed if im in another hospital, i might already given birth and already half way through my confinement liao.. (-_-) CB!

Hubby on mc today. Caught flu during midnight. Den he blamed me that i din cover blanket for him. wth. he was the one complaining warm initially. Den once i heard him sneezing, i woke up and cover blanket for him lo. even stood up to take tissue papers for him. den sneezing still never stop. So i poured him warm water too. After bt an hour, i finally heard the loud and familiar snore. haa. so i dozed back. woke up by his tossing and turning, den realised that he was sweating, so i brought down the blanket a lil. den he snored again. haaa. aiya, overall is, i din manage to sleep at all la! alarm rang at 8am for him to go work, but in the end he chose to take mc lor. u know la, when hes at home, i have to serve him or rather no rest at all lor. but, i fell asleep watching him played wahjong. lol. when i opened my eyes, it was 3 hours later liao. wah! and i found him sleeping like a log beside me. hee. cant help but to pinch his cheek lightly. pinched his double chin too. lol. den he woke up and tried to suffocate me with his armpit. but i managed to escape! lol. gross right? i know... we are always doing the gross things. mainly him la. haa.



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.Friday, March 28, 2008 Y

Haha. yes, water retention can get really bad. However preggy should not avoid drinking lots of water even though they have pig trotters like me. Our kidneys need it badly. mmm, well, preggy may try to reduce the amount of water intake after 6pm. Otherwise at night very terrible one lor. My legs can go swollen like as if balloon is going to burst. lol. and will feel numb throughout the night. hai. so, see? preggy's lifestyle is damn sickening la. always remember to rest ur legs high. eg, rest them on high stool or whatsoever la... to me, less swollen but very "sour" lor!!! hahahahaha....
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I din call the hospital to ask bt the induce thing la. Hubby said lets wait till 30th night, if he still not coming out den i call and ask. and den we will go there bt 5am to induce lor. and baby will be out on 31st!!! cuz we suddenly remembered that we ever told the master that baby's EDD is on 31st, and he said "very good". (cant specify more la...shhh...) So we shall wait and see. 3 more days to go only....!!! Since he never wanna come out, den better wait till 31st! hahahaha~!
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Does anyone has the information bt infant care centre??? what are the charges like? what are the regulations??? pls pls pls share with me can...??? pls huh.... thanks a mile~~~!!!!
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Im so dying to get a job and earn my own money can... i dun wan to be a typical housewife la. Tai-tai??? yes who doesn't wan to? but have to be the REAL tai-tai la... those like bling bling with diamonds or whatever rocks on them all over. at home undies costs 3 digits. toothpicks costs $2 per stick. all the culteries are made of gold and embedded with diamonds. slippers costs 1k. sanitary pad costs $10 per pad... hahahahahaha~!!! damn loaded la. fat hope!!!

.Tuesday, March 25, 2008 Y

Hey peeps,

do visit this blog: www.thaitattoosiao.blogspot.com

It provides you with many interesting facts bt Thai Buddism. You can also find some valuable amulets or collection. So ppl who are interested with this or who likes to know more, do drop by often for frequent updates.

Will update abt FengShui if possible. Those Dos and Don'ts in Fengshui are definitely important and can never be neglected. So do take notes and do something...

Feel free to comment. Do guide along.

Cheers!!!!

(Spread this around alright)

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Yesterday's check up was alright. Told doc that im feeling pain "there" and all my discomfort. but she said its alright, i should be feeling this way by now. She also said it must be pain not uncomfortable only... wth. pissed. She didnt even do a check on me. wth again. Den ask me to come back next week and do a scan too. But it will be overdued by den!!! She said never mind, take the date first, and if baby's still not out by den, they will do an induce. Think i was quite upset and pissed, so i asked, "how long more do i have to wait?" i am going through this pain for bt 2 weeks and im still waiting for the "every 5 mins pain" to come.... "den she said, "... erm. do u want to induce now? i think its better for natural birth la... go home and wait better...." i stood up and just went out of the room, not wanting to hear more shits. i mean they are just not professional at all!!!

Yesterday my pain was like living hell to me! but i still chose to dely and wait. I dun care. I couldnt be bother anymore. Like i was thinking that better still my water bag burst den they will have no choice but to let me deliver ya. Shit them la! cuzing my days so miserable. You know wat? now i have this kinda craving to call them and ask whether can i opt for induce now. and if they say yes, i will go to hospital at ard 5am, and den by the time babys out, will be daytime bah... yes. thats what i wan.... laters.....

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Its photos time!!! Like finally ya>>> Paisay lah..... (But only pathetic 3)
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Hubby's favourite dish, samsui chicken... Dunno whats so nice bt it... He loves it, so i love it too lor~ hee. Look at his cheeky face... Will Jayr have his cheeky look or my adorable look??? haa! A mixture of both would be perfect la.
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Can you see the "hump" there??? Swollen like fuck ok~! Can be worst sometimes...
Continue below............
If i didnt tell you its a feet of a preggy, you might be thinking its a fatso's one right???

Nah, never bluff you ba... really resembles pig trotters right? whenever Hubby sees them, he will comment them as "zhu jiao" lor... in hokkien somemore!!! "te'r kar"!!!! Knn~!!! Lol....

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Will my life going to be better when baby's out? Thou i will face new challenges and have new burdens, but at least i got back this slight lil freedom ya. And i must fight back for my pride and dignity....

Badly Screwed Up!!!

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Phew~~ Have finally done with those linking links. Not many leh... or mayb i missed out some? will try to source for more la... lazy lazy.

Flared at Hubby just now, like after so long... well, its not healthy to pretend and not healthy to act dumb. I dun care anymore. I roooooarrrrr-ed!!! Before i did that, i have already rehersed in my mind whats he's gonna say and react, and what would be my defensive respond. BUT! He never got agitated leh... funny hor??? instead he smsed and called a few times to make sure i "forgive" him and making sure that i am no longer angry. huh??? hur hur... left me so clueless now... *teary eyes* i wan a big bear hug now!!!!!!!!!!!! and he even said "sorry lau po". I mean he usually wont say untill he realised that was really his fault lor. Usually, for this kinda of situation (i dun wanna mention) he surely wont admit his wrong, or would be very firm that he is in no wrong and no need to apologise. very weird leh... ppl around me are all weirdos??!! LOL! oops! i mean LMAO!!! hahahahahahaha (see? i know the meaning)

Tomorrow, and i will be going for routine check up again. haiz. no mood lah. no mood for anything anymore. its either Jayr is coming out tomo or not. If no, den i really dunno when liao la. wait, wait and wait... just how long more should i wait??? *pissed* you know, im really getting tired of preggy lifestyle. really torturing and sickening. wth. cant imagine when there will be more to come. arggghh... is that a must? im starting to think that i am a brave girl somehow. lol. brave woman la....

Have taken pictures of my pig trotters, but haven upload yet. lazy. lazy. maybe tonight la. or tomorrow? or.... ermm....??? haha. okok la. will do it asap~!

.Monday, March 24, 2008 Y

Today is Qing Ming Jie... Wondering does Daddy know where am I anot. Or did he come and visit me??? I miss my Lua Pa.... I know he's somewhere out there....
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I woke up each day feeling more and more restless, emotionally.
I started to realise that i was too foolish to believe.
If i were to be given a chance.... i........



I was so happy before everything.....

(((im better off all alone)))

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Our precious son with our precious "creation". wahahahaha~

.Sunday, March 23, 2008 Y

Can anyone explain to me bt the defination of "Lmao" pls... What the hell does it mean hur? Kept seeing this word appearing in many ppl's acct or blog. I very kuku one lah, so pardon me and pls enlighten me... haa...

What's so fun or good bt Facebook huh? I mean seeing many ppl ditching good old friendster for Facebook. Den they will start saying things like, "hey, get a life man! its Facebook now!" So whats the big prob with ppl like me still being loyal to Friendster hur? Very kuku is it?! Well, got some feedbacks from friends, and none of them really like it lor. (haa. see whos the kuku ones.) Reasons are mainly bcuz its too confusing la, too many applications la, too leh chei la, blablabla. Den y ignores friendster leh? tell me tell me tell me. Should i or should i not get an acct for that? learnt that u can actually have avatar doll too right? and pet too? wow~! kuku again~ (-_-)

Den just now i went in to my pretty friendster acct to check and received a message from someone la. Den that message was about signing up an acct for another making-friends-webbie. Sosofriend.com. wth right? so many ppl desperate for friends meh? i know la... desperate for opposite sex's companion la.

First they got this Friendster. MySpace. WRYN. HI5. Den now Facebook. Sosofriend. and many more to come, i believe. Cyber world is really the big big threat to many relationships. Well, as a test bah. How sad.

My bloggy really got problem lor. how? get a new one again???!!! sian. DUN WAN.

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Always have gotta thanks a sexy girl-friend of mine. Whenever after having a conversation on msn, she would never fail to "inspire" me on the blogging topics... Haa... Otherwise my blog will start rotting like me too. Or its either i will be blogging bt baby Jayr or bt my boring and shitty life. You peeps really not sian meh??? lol. Moreover, after seeing so many other's blog, i somehow feel paisay lor, cuz i seldom upload new pics lah! Unlike them, always doing the cam-whoring thingy... Im just too ugly to do that right now ok. As u know, i did that too when i was whooo so slim right? haa. Gimme some time la ok? bear with it and soon you will get to see Jayr, den after that u will see a brand new me!!! (hopefully!)

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Look at the title of my blog of the day - COCKS.
Hahahaha... Yes. im going to do juicy contents again... lil manhood.... lol.

Ohwell, i have came to find out bt one sad sad fact of these ppl. Ppl whom flimed or took pics of their naked selves and partner's. These ppl's name usually would appear on papers or tv, but however, their partners were the one having the most attention den them. How sad ya? Maybe initially they wanted to do that to gain some useless fame but sadly they turned out to be the fools! and yet never gain any goodness from doing those silly acts... STOOOPID LAH!!!

Tammy. Remember this girl from NYP, whom home made sex video got leaked out??? (Oh, fyi, if you do not know, she's one of those famous bloggers too in singapore.) Her name appeared on papers but not her bf. However, in real life, ppl were discussing and more interested in her bf lor! They were all talking bt his cock, big manhood this time round... hahaha. and none of us were interested with that skinny, inexperience poor girl, who was trying so hard to be famous. How sad... I went to view her blog. So shameless lor. I mean she still have the face to show off herself lor. okok... well, lifes still gotta move on right. One thing is, i totally dun understand why she posted her family members' pics... She's really disgracing them somehow i think. and from her tagboard, i can tell ppl are still rubbing salts to her wound lor. treating her like prostitude. my advice to her is, to stay low profile and better off leave this cyber world for the time being, clear her rebutation den slowly back to this if she want to. and stay humble pls. shes too vain, too loud, too shameless and too FAKE. poor girl... till now, ppl still asking bt that guy... haa. i have to admit that i have seen that sex video. And all i could focus and rmb was the cock. haa. cuz thats was the most "beautiful" thing in that boring video lor. haa. okok. Enough said.

Edison. The horny man who took down many naked photos and videos of many females celebrities. He is the mastermind... However, his lil manhood disappointed many of us, thus causing many ppl to divert their attentions on those female celebs. hahaha. was that so or just bcuz chee gor pek out there wanna see free things??? lol... But i have to agree that those photos that are taken by him are juicy and "attractive" enough lo. He received nothing but blames, curses and threats. Those female celebs received praises, admiration, and of cuz some insults too la. Better den Edison himself right? noone praise his cock, and noone comfort him at all lor... poor boy. trying to gain some fun and do some of his favourite collection but ended up his hobby got him into shit. so whats the point??? just fuck and leave them be la. y must take pics and save for memo??? Think i have said enought bt him liao la.

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I felt kinda disgusted when i see Tammy loves pink too! and she even painted her room pink, like Xiaxue lor!!!! At least Xiaxue has got better taste den her la. omg! i was thinking that i wanna deco my future bedroom in pink and white, den now i saw this.... Shit ah... i swear if i wanna do pink, i must do it 100x better den her sia!!! pui!!! She just spoilt the cuteness in PINK!!!! Rooooooarrr~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No no.. im not a super fan for XX. Just that i loves pink and her princess room makes me fall in love with it...

.Sunday, March 16, 2008 Y

Why is that others can go for labour once they felt pain but i still gotta wait???!!!
Jayr's estimated weight is 2.8kg now.
If he's gonna stay in there longer den definitely will raise more ba...
Look at his chubby cheeks... *pinch*
(But hubby say wanna bite... *evil*)

Wednesday late night, i felt this constant pain like every 7 mins or so. I beared with it and told myself to wait awhile and see how. Den after 10 subsequent pain, i decided to get out from bed and quickly went for a bath. Hubby woke up and asked me why, cuz he was too sleepy and blur to actually know WHY! lol.. Den after a min he finally came to his senses and jumped up from bed, changed, packed, called his cousin (staying nearby) to come fetch us. He sweat like mad sia. Not cuz of the weather but was bcuz he's nervous like fark, i guessed. Haa...
Throughout the journey i bite my lips and controlled myself from moaning of pain. Den when we finally reached the scary cold delivery suite, i suay suay encountered a worst attitude senior midwife. damn cb. think she has that kind of attitude is all bcuz she thinks shes old and experience enough. pui! She didnt lift her bloody heavy head to look at my face when talking to me!!!

SHE: "what is the problem....?" (sheepishly...zzzzzz)
ME: "Contraction pain every 10 mins." (already pissed off *fuming*)
SHE: ".... So wat u wan us to do? u wan pain relief or stay here for monitor or wat..." (zzzzz)

She was fucking testing me can! if i know what i wan, i wouldnt even come in the middle of the night looking like a pathetic lost child!!! and she hadn't even check on my particulars, eg: EDD and all...!!!! Im already 38+ weeks and she still asked me whether i wan pain relief???!!! helloo!!!!

ME: "What?! (glared hard at her) "what do u mean wat i wan?!" (slightly louder)
SHE: (went silent and choosed to face the pc and started checking my particular.)
BOTH: ".........................................."
SHE: "oh, erm.. u are 38+ weeks already huh... erm, lets monitor u for at least an hour first alright... den see what the doc has gotta say ok... come with me...."

~CB!!!~

The CTG result showed that i was indeed having contraction, but how badly, i dunno. Den the doc said he need to do checking for me. Checking means checking my cb. (-_-) Damn painful la!!! this time maciam my virginia torn lor! i swear man... He said my cervix area still close, mayb only like 1 cm only. Still consider early for labour. So he said i may go home. I will have to face these pain for as long as baby come out lor. Unless my pain comes like every 5 mins.
Can u see how pathetic i am now.... haiz...

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Why does all good things never linger and stay... Why cant it just be maintained that way... Many times having the feeling that im having it all and wanted to hold on to it forever so much, but ended up it just vanished and gone like this... ya, like this... a snap of fingers... Impossible that im the one not know how to treasure. Highly impossible that i am the one whom turned it this way. Seriously, i have no clue at all, even though its my life, but i have no clues to all the cruel changes made to my miserable-enough life.
To my amaze, i have no terrible feelings towards these anymore. Have i successfully given up on all these? Like i dun care what is coming or what is leaving... For better or worse... I dun care anymore... Comes what may...
I have my own path, my own life...

Terrible ppl treating others terribly, and yet telling others that they are the terrible ones forcing them to behave such terribly way, without actually knowing that they are the one having this serious terrible attitude and behaviours... terrible mentality......

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Getting real sick of my life, my living style, daily routine and many irritating ppl around me... I seriously need a good change somehow...

Hadn't been working for like 7 months or so. No income for 7 months or so. Really feeling damn low and having the feeling that im kinda useless somehow. No matter what, its always better to earn ur own money and have ur own secret savings. U know, at least dun need to see ppl's face or accept their fucked up attitude. Money, amazingly gives us a sense of secure in someway. Especially we women. Lets ignore those egoistic bastards. They need money to boost their ego level, and i still dun understand why is there such kind of need for? And when they have no money or not enough to spare, they will choose to hide in their turtle shell. wth. i mean life's still gotta move on. pls dun vent the ridiculous anger on any of the innocent family member.

Im so dying to get out and get a job. I wan to earn my own money. My own cash. My secret savings. But can anyone tell me what to do with Jayr? there will be noone looking after him. dun ask me bt my mil or my mother ok. they are useless. enough said. im thinking of infant care. but very expensive right??? and i dun bear to leave him at his early hood lo... hai... dunno la. i really dunno wat to do anymore. nowadays ppl talk bt money. even close kins. wat a disgrace...

Argggghh!!! Im so farking pissed la. Dunno why kena so many mosquito bites on my legs and hands! but i didnt see any flying in the air leh... very itchy can. like distracting me from blogging properly. CB lah~! Now i got so many bumps all over. argghhhh!!!!!!!!

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I watched Cj7 dvd today with Hubby. Someone lent it to him. i thought it must be a boring and somewhat stupid show, haa, no, i was wrong. The doll is really super adorable and irresistable. How i wish i have one of it as my companion??? lol. Towards the ending part, there were alot rushing out from the UFO. Many different colours lor! but why never manufacture other colours Cj7 dolls leh? I fancy the pink ones... hee...

My after thought for this show... I miss my lau pa. Really miss him so so much. thou they say preggy shall not go to those kind of places, but i still went to do some offering for him. Cuz Qing Ming is around the corner, by den Jayr will be out and i will be doing my confinement, and afraid that lau pa might not have sufficient money to spare. Sometimes although knowing that hes much more happier living in netherland, but i do somehow worry for him, cuz we cant see and know nuts bt the other world. I choosed to believe all those traditional things. I never wanna see him suffer or living not well, u see... So the most i can do is burn him more money and more things. My lau pa too, eventhough we were poor and helpless den, he would still provide me with all the goodness as he could. Never let me starve. never let me go raggard, out dated and poor-looks. He knew that appearance is really important and will affect a child's feeling too. Thou, we couldn't afford those high tech thingy, but somehow he would make up and made me feel better and never make me feel that im a poor kid. Noone in this world can ever ever give me this love, this secure....

However i will try all my best to provide Jayr with these.......

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Well, yesterday's routine check up was all the same again. Scanning took so long cuz Jayr was moving about throughout. Lol! Den that person (i dunno wat u called them) said, "hey baby, stay still...!" We laughed and i tried to touch him and soothed him somehow. My baby boy loves attention and gentle touch. Not something poking at him roughly. Lol. Jayr's estimated weight is 2.8kg. Im so glad to hear that. At least i know he is growing well and not underweight, u see. And he's big enough to come out into this world. I have told the doc bt all the discomforts im facing but she still said wait for huge pain, bleeding or water bag burst. Ya, and im waiting still... *roll eyes*
The pain im having are irregular and not strong enough. But im having it almost everyday lo. Well, guessed my body is getting all warmed up first and rehersing for the actual one ya. Lol. Thats what the book says. Cervix area will tend to "pratice" contraction and thus causing painless discomfort. Amazing right??? Human's body are amazing, especially women's.
Thanks all darlings for ur lovely concern. Im waiting nervously for Jayr's arrival too. I wanna see his face too. I cant wait lor! I miss everyone and miss hanging out with frens. Soon ya, after everything den lets organise ok? Thanks again. *loves*
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She is my purrrfect sexy Goddess~~~!!!

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tomorrow i will be going for my regular check up, AGAIN~! 38+weeks we are... (Jayr and I) haa... Was told by others that doc will usually give me a check (down there) to determine whether am i ready for labour anot. Actually last week she wanted to, but ended up never, i dunno why too... Instead she asked me to go for scanning tomo before seeing doc. Scanning to estimate the baby's weight and see to his position.
The other 2 times Jayr had tried to come out but failed. Den now its time for him to come out and he refused.... lol. Guessed bcuz im taking more birdnest and essence now, and he's enjoying inside. Lucky brat! hahahaha.
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Some bullshiter really pissed the hell out of me. thinking that i will never get to know wat has came out from that piece of shit mouth. again and again. lies and lies. Slandered me? Try harder and you will really get a hell lotsa shit from me! I have yet start my revenge. Better stop now, or i will never let you off for this. Guessed you never known that actually those ppl are mocking at you and knew that u were talking shit to shield ur own big butt! I will get you outta my life soon! M>I>S>E>R>A>B>L>E.
p.s. better dun go boo-hoo for the consequences u have asked for!

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Caught a movie just. Its 2.20am now, and both me and hubby just came back from midnight movie at town. We watched "The Spiderwick Chronicles." Very nice show peeps. Must-watch! Or i should say maybe bcuz i simply love these kinda fairy-tales-alike movies. Its magical, beautiful and along with funny bits... If it isnt that good, den i will not waste my precious time and sacrifice my beauty sleep to sit here and type lor. Tomo is Sunday, so im hereby introducing nice thing to you peeps. Go watch~!

.Sunday, March 9, 2008 Y

Look carefully at those beautiful hair Nicole Scherzinger has got~! Im gonna get that by hook or by crook. I mean all naturally. No fake extention! I will grow that~!!! Mark my words.

This motivates me to get back my old sexy days back. my sexy self!!! Sexy and dirrrty Ines Per!

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I had a dream last night. I woke up this morning smiling; feeling blissful and heartwarming....

*Smile sweetly*

"Im carrying an infant in my arms. Its a boy! He looked at me with his purely innocence eyes. Smiling sweetly and shyly at me... Kicking his lil legs when i played with him. "Jayr, mummy bao bao ok..." and i kissed him on his nose and his forehead... I turned to Hubby and said, "look, our son... so adorable..." Hubby smiled and came over...."

*Loud Melody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*
Stupid alarm rang at this very important moment lah! CB! And yes! ruined my beauty sleep and blissful dream lor! argggghhhhh!!!!!!!
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Today is another moody day for me. I dunno why. I woke up and i felt this way. feeling kinda upset and mad over nothingness. silly right? Hubby called many times. But seems not enough to me. I also dunno what i wan la. haiya. i dun like this shitty feeling im having inside me right now!

Yesterday's entry was short. But nice intro right? i dunno whats ur say, but do try the game if you chance upon. Hubby and I used to kill time in arcade playing this. lol. no! im not ah lian ok! just happened that theres an arcade beside the cinema, and to kill time and wait for the show, we bo bian den have to spend some bucks to play bomberman! ... and last night Hubby was sitting right beside me, so i have no inspiration to blog. haa! tell me how to do ur diary when someone is there reading everything u typing? funny eh?
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Very soon baby is coming out. and very soon i will be doing confinement. and very very soon i will have my freedom!!! i dun care la. if that somebody still not going to work and choose to stay at home and annoy me more, den i will have no choice but to bring baby out to other's place EVERYDAY! U know, i just dun care how tough it is! cuz with this person around, both baby and i wont have peace. let alone sufficient rest ya. faster go find a job la! with or without u at home also no difference, just annoying only. cuz u never do anything at all besides lying on bed only!

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Many darlings out there were like asking me, "hey! its already 11th march~ when's Jayr coming out??" Haa. I seriously dunno can. Thou im told from the very beginning that his EDD is 31st March 2008. well, and den during this "happening" pregnancy, many things occured and doctor predicts and said i might have pre-term labour or like recently, told me that baby is coming out anytime. true enough that for twice, Jayr was trying his luck to come out but sadly got denied by doctor. haa. and made me this poor mommy suffered twice during the hospital stays. His position is already engaged and ready for deliver. Luckily placenta has slightly moved up and no worries bt dangerous bleeding anymore. So now what? Im waiting impatiently for the "anytime" to happen! but when?? gosh! this is seriously driving me mad.
Yesterday night im having this slight contraction but ignored cuz it wasnt constant and strong. This morning i woke up around 5am feeling so hungry. Den my great hubby went to make hot drink for me and i have that with my fav biscuits. Shortly after he have to prepare and go for work. So he brought me to bed and wanna make me sleep. I just couldnt. Cuz i suddenly feel the pain around by back and tummy too. And both my legs went weak too. However i told hubby to go ahead for his work cuz even though it might be the kick start, it also will takes hours. I tolerate the pains for 3 hrs den fall asleep. haa. But till now, i dun have the pain anymore and baby is still kicking fine. wt.... i mean i had enough of false alarms la. just when is the baby coming out huh?
ok. My darling hubby is home with food. ~mmm... i smell food~ And he forbid me from blogging. he said eat first!!! sooo tata~!

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Oh my life's sooooo great! Hubby finally bought me my craves - ICE CREAM!!!
hip hip hooray!!!
And oh, its my silly and kuku mistake, its not called mac oreo ice cream, it is MacFlurry!! Aiya, i have mentioned earlier on that i never like that one, but dunno why i have this sudden craving for it. lol. I only remembered it as vanilla ice cream with oreo cookies bits, containing in a blue and white cup and comes along with a big spoon~ hahaha... Selfish me ate it all up by myself and never share with Hubby a single bit. lol. no wonder he gave me that stare. haha. cuz i know he will finish most of it lo!!! den i dunno when will i have the chance to eat that again. i mean with his permission... (-_-) he said preggy cannot eat cold thing.

IM SO CONTENTED & HAPPY!!!
(I love you puppy...)
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As for yesterday's check up, everything was fine. same thing, we paid for that few sentences. but this time round i told the doctor that im having irregular pain, but she said unlikely that im delivering. So, wait lo. Unless my pain gets stronger and more constant, water bag burst or bleeds... Yesterday night till this morning i felt the pain again. but its awhile thingy. and not constant. so i dun think too ba. next appointement will be next monday. I have this kinda instinct telling me that Jayr will be out by den... or within these few days... shall see. till then~!

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Im getting more and more emotional nowadays. I want extras and hell lotsa attention and love but i dun wan them when i have to ask for it. :(
I hate it when i have the feeling that im been used or taken granted for.
I wan more concern, care and love in a more gentle and willingly manner.

I dunno when is Jayr coming out. all i know is "anytime".
Freaking affects my mood badly cuz i hate to be left guessing and worrying.
Farking worst when somebody is going to be ard annoying me more.

I browsed through my pictures and saw that i was sexy slim.
How am i going to shed off these extra kilos in asap time?
If im not able to do it by end of this yr den i can go bang the wall.
Seriously, i want back my confidence!
Highly demanding~!

I want to have my new house asap.
I dun care whos going to cry.

Its either that or,
get me outta Singapore!!!

Enough said!

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Was chatting with my sexy girl-friend on msn yesterday. Beauty care products is one of the topic. mmm... Lets continue to share some past experience with you peeps here.

When i first stepping into this society and started my earning, (thou it wasn't hell lot but was quite good money for a sweet 16 girl) i was having the crave to spend my money on good food and good things. Good things = Branded stuffs. Clothes, heels, bags, wallets, perfume, make ups, hairdo, facial and facial products. I started to go for SKII, Beaute de Kose, Dior, Estee Lauders. All those high end products eh. which costed me few hundreds bucks lor! hell man! how i wish i could get back those wasted money.

I met a good friend, pretty loaded and we always talk bt fashion and products. Den she told me that she's using products from Body Shop and Simple, and some other things she could find in any shop if chanced upon. "Branded and expensive things doesnt equal to best things." That was what i remember her saying. I was treating that as a passing remark den.

2 yrs ago, i've encountered a terrible breakout lor! I was so upset and fraustrated. All those expensive products didnt do good at all lo! mayb reduced my pimples but den dried my skin. arghhh! or improved slightly but my skin wasnt soft and smooth anymore lo. Den one day i walked into Watson as i was waiting for some late comer la, den i explored the beauty products colume. I saw Garnier light series, den i remember that i once used it during my sec sch days and it really smoother my skin and reduced the dullness. So without thinking twice, i bought most of the things from that series, and also oxy cream to aid my pimples. And within that week, i seen huge improvement lo! Cheap and good ok!!! And i love the frangrance~

Den my itchy butt controls my brainy brain, i stopped using that again and started splurging on some korean products which my friend introduced. Not bad la. But for long term use, that one cannot compare to Garnier light at all lo! Den my skin turned dry and dull again.. Shitty right. And den im getting married soon, but my skin so sucks! I tried to asked around but to no avail. So i suddenly remember Garnier light!!! Ta dah!!! Untill now im still using it lo. Cuz during pregnancy i have experienced the worst complexion problem in life lo. And im sensitive to fragrance too. So this is the best choice as for now. haa. ok la, think i will still continue it for goodness sake.

When i tried other whitening products, they actually dry up the skin. But this one helps whiten and moisterise too. And im more confident to go without make up now. Serious! Cuz before using back this, when i didnt make up, i looked so dull and sick lo. But now its a different thing ok, i look freshen up and healthy! haizzz... but still cant solve my dark rings problem la. many folks told me its like that when u having a baby boy... and some beautician told me its useless to use any eye cream right now cuz this is hormones problem. haizz... But i still use la, just in case baby come out liao, i can still look slightly better. LOL!!!!!

For facial mask, i have no preference la. I would love to try many. Especially when im having bad skin days, i would do mask everyday lo! even hubby also as vain as me now. but i bought men's for him. But sometimes he still wan to use mine. lol. cuz he said mine got so many choices and smells nicer. hahahaha. the best one is those apply one. but sometimes lazy ma, so i bought alot of the sheets one. hahaha. red wine masks are my favourite! now i tend to choose those with collegen. cuz u know la, women once gave birth, the skin will like aging too lo. haizz...

My advice to all pretty vainy girls, (like me) go to Watson, missha, face shop, beauty shop, or whatever u chance upon more often ok. i would rather u spend ur hard earn money there and u can actually buy more and try more things. Rather den spending huge amount on a single small and pathetic bottle of thing. However, u have to be "hardworking" la. everyday must follow and do the procedure. there is no ugly woman but only lazy woman. better is to do facial on ur own. DIY! cuz u know ur skin better. but once in a while can pamper ourselves to beauty saloon too. Cuz i do agree that some equipment and products they using there are effective as well. Believe it or not, once u rely long on them, once u stop, ur skin will turn terrible! i have gone through that. so trust me.

Its fun to DIY. and u can do many things to ur face as u like, but must know the pros and cons la. cannot overdo it ok. LOL. mmmm... im still learning to trim my brows in more professional way. Lol. think i still need help la.. haa.

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Woke up very unwillingly for check up as early as 7am sharp! Like oh gosh! The sky was so dark and rain kept falling... arggghhhh~!!!! "I dun wan to wake up!!!!!" *sobzz* Den my cruel Hubby switched on the bright light and came irritate me with all his mighty might. (-__-)

Was slightly late for appointment la. But i didnt bother at all. The queue was fast and soon it was my turn. "Mdm Per Xiaohui...." arggghhh!!! sounds so orh biang right? Why is there the need to call out my name when the screen have already shown and blinked my q-no.??? and, i was sitting right in front of that room!!!! whatever~ Im married = Mrs/Mdm. (-___-)

Doctor didnt say much except for asking some usual questions like "any pain?" "any bleeding?" "any leakage of water from below?" Den said im 36+ weeks now, so its anytime for me to deliver. well, i know.... So that was it and we paid for this few sentences. %^&$@*^!!!

We went to bugis temple and prayed. Had our breakfast at Mac. Hotcakes are my love! Den we took a bus to Marine Parade. Walked around. Nothing much. Went to Giant cuz we need to replenish fruits. mmm... after which hubby said cannot walk too long, have to go home and rest, so went to take a bus home lo....

Napped for 3+ hours. Shiok ah!!!

Hubby is cutting the fruits now. weee~!!! im waiting..... hee.... den we are going to watch movie online... wahhhh!!!

Go to http://www.ppstream.com/ for free movies. p.s.: remember to download the programme first.


I wan to slim down asap!!!! but how????

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Wondering whether does it really matter alot to health if really i would like depend on contraceptive pills for long term. hmmm...???

1. Condoms
2. Spermicide
3. Withdrawal when cum
4. NO SEX!

wahahahaha~! All seems impossible to us at all lor~

Hubby will never favour the idea of putting on rubber during the wonderful process. And i do find it a major turn off too! A big no-no! Just imagine when u've finally reached the peak of the marvellous woo-hoo-ing, and den u need to pause it just to put on tat stupid balloon-lookalike. argh! even if it takes only few secs, i also will die of horniness can!!! LOLs~! but c'mon la, just admit like i do. hee...

Spermicide? what is that actually? i read it on magazines but till now i still have no idea how to "operate" it. Sounds freaky enough to make me turn away. Doesn't it ring a bell to you peeps? Something like pesticide or insecticide right??? eeks! u mean spray it on their cock once they ejaculated or spray it on ur virgina to kill off those living tadpoles??? HAHA~! Hilarious man! I know i sounded dimwit and made no sense. but well, hahahahahaha!!!

Well, studies shows that even if the man withdrew and cum on ur body or tissue paper or bedsheet or whatever u like la, doesn't mean that u wont have those semen inside you and never have the chance to get pregnant. NO! During the intercourse, some may already swam out of the manhood and into you! So, stop ur naive thinking and believe ur bf when they say its gonna be alright. it will only be alright if they have sufficient money in thier piggy bank for standby~ to marry you!!!

Wahaha! Must be kidding us man. No sex? how is that possible for couples? unless one fine day i turn into a nun for goodness sake. LOL! impossible ok! im not going to act demure here and tell u peeps im fine with no sex marriage. *puke* be frank, i need it. but doesnt mean any tom, dick or henry can fulfill this task of mine ok! when u are in love with a man, u will only find sex sexy, sweet, passionate and heart warming, with him only! tat is partly why i cant understand why some ppl out there can jolly well indulge in one night stand thingy. ask me to suck a dick of a non lover? KILL ME den~!!!!!

mmm.... there is still a solution for not getting pregnant. Operation! But too soon la. Hubby would definitely love to have more kids lo. i may do so, but that will be many years later ba.

So tell me, isnt contraceptive pill the best weapon in this kinda situation? Some ppl say after taking these for long, woman might not be able to conceive easily again. And some say these will affect the hormones badly thus causing the body to turn fat. There are many sayings la. Im afraid too. mm... well, mayb after labour i have to seek some advice from doctor ba.

Who knows? scarely we have low sex rate after baby come out leh......... and that will be a tragic!!!! (-___-)

ermm, why am i here talking bt sex with u peeps huh? whatever~~~

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Our avatar wawas.
Hubby's GuoGuo

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The first thing hubby got his salary was to bring me for shopping spreeeeeee.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love. Love. Love. Love. Love. Love. Love.

The second thing was to bring me for lotsa' good fooooooood.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yum. Yum. Yum. Yum. Yum. Yum. Yum. Yum.

The third thing was buying so much of tonic, birdnest and chicken essence.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kiss. Kiss. Kiss. Kiss. Kiss. Kiss. Kiss. Kiss.


Shouts: Hubby!!!! U are simply the best!!! I love you!!!!!!!!!!!

*Tonight im going to brew some of the $265 birdnest for us and Jayr ok.... shhh.....*

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I have got so many new cosmectics. wee~~~ Mostly are eye make ups. *loves!* I dun use lips products so i passed that. Facial wise, i'll stick to my usual ones. Cuz im more confident in it and to be frank, i rarely find one tat truely suits me perfectly, so i will never risk la. That's why i have choosen so many eye makeups lo... hee.. mascaras, eye liner, eye colours, and some really cool thing that can enhance the eyes and also add on glitters to the eyes. wee~~~~
Hubby bought me a new bag. He insisted one lo. I never say i like it or even wan to own it. lol. shhh... But he said that one suits me and also match my lil handbag which he has bought for me few months ago. This new one can be use as diapers bag. LOL!!! Like tat also must mix and match. *faint* well, many a times i have to buy things that suits his preference lo. hmpx! otherwise he can go nagging or eeeeeeee for very long time sia. *roll eyes*
Hubby said, "pig, go and see any clothes u like anot..." Me, "but why? Jayr coming out soon and den i will start my weight lose regime~!" *winks*
More tidbits definitely. crunch crunch crunch!!!
Elders say i must start takin chicken essence now, so that i will have the strength and stamina during labour. So Hubby bought a dozen of it lo! i told him tat dun buy too much cuz i might not like the taste. hee. But ok la, this one im having tastes alright la. On top of tat, he bought birdnest. Ready one and dried one. wooosshh!!! im loving it~! very the "pu" huh.... LOL.
Went to PageOne to buy magazines and useful books to kill my time during confinement. So thoughtful of him right. *sweet*

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Im going fo check ups in 2 more days. Dunno whether will the doctor ask me to go to the labour ward straight. LOL. or perhaps one more week after this. ah...~!!!!!!!!! Jayr is kicking fine. very strong and fast and very long time. LOL. Im good. Bloated and swollen. (-_-) Both my feets looks like pig trotters. *not funny*

Hubby coming home soon. its raining so heavily right now. i miss him even more.

p.s.: i wanna feel home again. i wanna watch p.s. i love you............

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