"You know its love when forever is not long enough..."This phrase keep running through my mind, lingering there and reminds me of something i once thought of while doing some soul searching... During the courtship days, human will tend to say "I love you forever" so frequently and undoubtfully. Whether they mean it or understand the exact meaning and moral of it, we dun know. For once, i thought that by missing someone so badly, even everything i do or see, reminds me of him, this means i love him seriously lots. Yes, which indeed was true. But, come to think of it, i rarely use the word, "Forever". Not that i dun love him, well, its just that i dun wanna say something which im afraid i might not be able to fulfill, u see. If every bf, i told them forever, den how many am i going to pay back??? joking. I think for my whole 20yrs of life, my husband is the first and only one i have used this word, "Forever". And that was after we got married. But i still rarely use it. Cuz this word though seems common but the meaning is so profound.
Forever- How long is forever? Will forever comes to an end? can forever be trusted?
I know im deeply in love with my hubby when i suddenly finds forever isn't long and secure enough. I used to pray that we could be together forever in harmoniously, and thus i'll be contented. However, ever since im married, forever seems so unrealistic to me. I often thinks, we will grow old together, and one fine day one of us is going to leave this world first, and den what about the forever love we once promised to each other? "i'll be there for you always and forever..." But how if one dies earlier?? Now im pregnant, very soon we will be parents of dunno how many and den we will grow older and older and den forever will seems more and more like nothing to me anymore... "i will love u forever" "i will be with you forever"..... but just one day, one fine day, i am going to lose you somehow, someway... and den will u still remember that u love me and i love you too when u close ur eyes and leave for other paradise???
Jacky's Wife